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What is your wish for 2026?

  • Die

    Votes: 59 69.4%
  • Other

    Votes: 26 30.6%

  • Total voters
    85
Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,724
What is your wish for 2026?
Vote please.
 
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pthnrdnojvsc

pthnrdnojvsc

Extreme Pain is much worse than people know
Aug 12, 2019
4,101
for me to die is what i wish .

i don't wish for anything in evil life or this evil world

everything else is to either get me closer to my goal suicide.

or garbage things i have to do like sleep , eat , bathroom , shower , work , chores to do lists . i don't want to do them i only have to do them to avoid even worse suffering because i'm still alive . if i could kill myself today then i wouldn't ever have to do anything , worry about anything nor fear any threats of unbearable pain etc.

to avoid unbearable pain , but the reason i'm risking unbearable pain is because i continue to live . nothing can matter after i die because i won't exist ever again as before i was born.

my goals now are to suicide then work on getting suicide ready. then avoid pain like having to sleep well etc eat groceries work a job to get groceries and so on. so me avoiding unbearable pain is a goal and matters but only because i haven't acheived my only rational goal killing myself
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
14,066
Ideally, I'd like out this year. Life's already dragged on too long. If not, I just hope I can get through another year as pain and suffering free as possible.
 
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FuneralCry

FuneralCry

Just wanting some peace
Sep 24, 2020
46,353
No matter what all I could ever hope for is to permanently cease existing and finally be free from this evil, horrific world that just causes endless amounts of cruelty and suffering, to exist is a terrible punishment and as long as exist I'll just hope for beautiful non-existence where all is gone and forgotten.

It truly is so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I'll always see existence as a mistake that just causes so much futile, unnecessary suffering torturing existing beings all for the sake of it, the peace of non-existence would solve everything for me as if I don't exist I cannot suffer in any way and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I wish I could erase this existence, for me non-existence is all that's positive, existence is so evil to me, I see existence as the problem and I find it horrifying how a human can suffer for so long just to face the extreme agony of old age, it truly is an abomination to exist.
 
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DeathSweetDeath

Experienced
Nov 12, 2025
210
Just want to successfully & peacefully ctb.
 
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thefarter

thefarter

i don’t smoke
Dec 10, 2025
35
i get sn and drink it and die frfr
 
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Carryline

Member
Oct 11, 2025
50
I Wish to rest in peace and i hope 2026 will be my last year
 
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wishiwasalittlecool

wishiwasalittlecool

title here
Nov 10, 2025
11
Everything is just an illusion. Death is the truth. Nothing can keep me ignorant and deluded enough to be "happy"
 
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cheaptrick

cheaptrick

Member
Jul 17, 2024
34
To not be in constant pain would be a dream come true.
 
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lawlietsph

lawlietsph

can we be done here
May 6, 2023
333
to not feel this mental suffering anymore. one way or another, but make it stop
 
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madameviolette

madameviolette

Another Big Pharma victim
Oct 9, 2025
323
I need peace
 
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Captive_Mind515

Captive_Mind515

King or street sweeper, dance with grim reaper!
Jul 18, 2023
482
Have some fun… do some good… get out young! (Maybe) ✌️

And keep chipping away at my SI, trying to better understand how my mind operates. Mental prep work.
 
kuroshimi

kuroshimi

If you're not remembered, then you never existed.
Dec 1, 2025
139
Chose the option "Die", but actually not sure. My life was full of suffering, but still have some hope left.

I will be glad of my death anyway.
 
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Alpacachino

Alpacachino

Merry Christmas!
Nov 26, 2025
171
A peaceful and easily available option for CTB becomes available.
 
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Coral

Coral

no one would miss me
Mar 18, 2023
10
Ideally? Die. As so many others have wished before me lol. I just can't keep doing this whole cycle over and over and over. And I don't think I have much of a future to look forward to.
But I highly doubt 2026 will be my year. I wish it was, though. It's kind of a nice number too look at. Would be a lovely number on my tombstone lol.
But if 2026 won't have me, I guess I just wish for... peace. To not be plagued by this constant ache in my heart would be lovely.
 
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carfemtanyl

Member
Nov 18, 2025
46
There is a girl I really like but I know she is struggling too. I hope we both get better and might get together.
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,724
Thanks for your answers.

The more votes i get,the better
 
alstroemeria55

alstroemeria55

Irreparable
Sep 4, 2025
51
I wish I could just cease existing, I can't find any reason why things would get better when I'm this garbage of a person. Nobody really gives a shit anyway.
 
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Al_stargate

Al_stargate

I was once a pretty angel
Mar 4, 2022
792
Hopefully I won't even see 2026. Killing yourself right prior to Xmas and NYE is kinda genius because nobody will want to show up at your funeral. Everyone got holiday plans and don't want it ruined. Wish I could ctb but haven't been able to go through yet. But need to have serious attempt hopefully before new year.
 
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OnMyLast Legs

OnMyLast Legs

Too many regrets
Oct 29, 2024
665
Hopefully I won't even see 2026. Killing yourself right prior to Xmas and NYE is kinda genius because nobody will want to show up at your funeral. Everyone got holiday plans and don't want it ruined. Wish I could ctb but haven't been able to go through yet. But need to have serious attempt hopefully before new year.
This coming weekend is perfect for me. I have an anchor point, I have a rope, people counting on me Monday can be informed. The catch is I want to spend my money (and food stamps) and enjoy my Christmas gifts. Also this is around the time of year where depressed turns around to manic so maybe I can give life one more try to be sure.
 
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RadioRamen

RadioRamen

Member
Nov 14, 2025
39
I'd like to be done with everything, and just pass in my sleep or something so life insurance will pay out to my family but I can just be gone and no longer a burden
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,724
Je voudrais en finir avec tout ça, et mourir paisiblement dans mon sommeil, pour que l'assurance-vie puisse verser l'argent à ma famille et que je disparaisse enfin, libéré de tout fardeau.
Yes free
 
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Defenestration

Defenestration

I want to have the courage to defenestrate myself
Oct 25, 2020
1,724
Idéalement ? Mourir. Comme tant d'autres avant moi, haha. Je ne peux plus continuer comme ça indéfiniment. Et je ne crois pas avoir un avenir prometteur.
Mais je doute fort que 2026 soit mon année. J'aimerais bien, pourtant. C'est un joli chiffre, en plus. Ce serait un beau chiffre gravé sur ma tombe, haha.
Mais si 2026 ne veut pas de moi, je crois que je souhaite simplement… la paix. Ne plus être tourmenté par cette douleur lancinante au cœur serait un vrai bonheur.
This circle is depressing
 

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