Sad_Autistic_boy_101
When I die, you'll love me.
- Nov 19, 2019
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I'm at the point of my life where I don't know whether I am genuinely in a stable period, manic or numb but my intense emotions and things I developed from trauma have disappeared and I am constantly calm/ happy for no reason. The strange thing is I don't know if this is recovery as I woke up like it one day and because I've spent my entire life in survival mode and severe mental illness and now I'm not in that state I have no memory of my life. I don't know if this is because I can no longer access the emotions I felt for so long so the memories are locked away or whether this is a normal part of recovery? I had planned to start trauma therapy but now I have no memories of the abuse I went through during my childhood so I had to stop as I wasn't able to recall anything.
Has anyone else experienced this in their life as part of recovery?
Has anyone else experienced this in their life as part of recovery?
