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DiscussionIf you could change something in your life, what would you change?
Thread starterEren
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Get rid of any one of my mental illnesses. They create a vicious cycle I can't break out of.
Probably gonna get gastric bypass (if I live until my insurance says it's okay) because "getting rid" of my binge eating disorder seems to be the easiest way. And even this takes forever to actually get done, which makes me anxious again, which makes me binge, depressed, anxious and so on. You get the gist.
I am conflicted on this... The part of me that wants to live makes me wish to change a lot of things - my genes, my childhood experiences and to get rid of past abuse that happened. The other part of me only wants to change 1 thing: That I die sooner.
The fact that I'm so broken sexually. Sex has only brought me pain and fear. Now I can't even have a normal sexual relationship and nobody will ever love me because of it.
I would want to be a normal, functioning human being. I want to be able to do the basic things that most people have no trouble doing like having a job, learning how to drive, etc. I can't even say a full sentence to someone I don't know. I haven't accomplished any typical milestones associated with becoming an adult. I have nothing to show for myself.
I would want my body to function the way it did when I was a teen again.
If that wasn't possible then I would want to have more (as shallow as that is) money. Just enough to live comfortably and never have to work again (for at least 10 years).
1. I wouldn't have depression anymore.
2. I wouldn't have an anxiety disorder anymore.
3. I'd have financial security. I don't need to be rich nor wealthy. I just need to not live paycheck to paycheck anymore.
4. I wouldn't be insecure.
5. I wouldn't have phobias.
My physical appearance, changing it to be attractive and taller, this would solve like 70% of my problems, I would be confident about myself, probably would get a gf and stop having this constant urge for killing myself, although my mindset is pretty fucked up at this point.
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