Discussion Would you still ctb if you won the lottery tmr?

[yui.]

I'm not talking about 1k or even 10k. Hypothetically, if you got life changing money like 10M bucks after taxes and everything would you still decide to ctb? Whether the answer is yes or no, what would you like to do with the money?

In my case, there are just some things I can't change even with that amount of money. I can't change who my parents are. I can't change how I feel about myself. I can't change my past. I honestly don't even feel the desire to change anything in life ever since I've made up my mind. However, I would probably delay my exit. I still wish to enjoy the world one last time before I go, so if I do end up with life-changing money, I would like to travel around the world. I'd like to see the Earth one last time. In the end, I don't think my decision to ctb will change. I have no regrets and nothing left to live for so it would only end up delaying my plan just like any other unforeseen circumstance.

 

[hihi2027]

What an interesting thought. Personally i would still ctb even with the money since no amount would fix my mental health. i would still enjoy it one last time though, but its hard to say what id use it for specifically. probably on an online shopping spree just for the dopamine rush of purchasing alot of items that ill never use. Either that or use it to obtain the perfect location for my final day. Probably a house in a beautiful part of the woods in the mountains where i wont be disturbed or found before its too late. Just a wonderful view of nature and sounds of the wind before my demise. Ah but only one can dream...

 

[Chili]

Probably fuckin not lmao. Just personally.

I'd probably:
1. Get a financial advisor. 2. Quit working 3. Get a mail order husband or something 4. Live out in the woods. If I still feel like ctb I'm buying drugs

 

[hihi2027]

Probably fuckin not lmao. Just personally.

I'd probably:
1. Get a financial advisor. 2. Quit working 3. Get a mail order husband or something 4. Live out in the woods. If I still feel like ctb I'm buying drugs

Living out in nature sounds like this with no worry it might ironically reduce my urge to ctb actually

 

[Chili]

Living out in nature sounds like this with no worry it might ironically reduce my urge to ctb actually

I think exiting from anything and everyone would help me immensely, especially if I don't have to really worry about survival. I have my poor mail order husband (or whatever sucker I get in the woods), chickens, bees, you name it. Would it cure me? Probably not but it might help it be manageable

 

[100memoryleaks]

no amount of money can bring my sweetheart back, I would donate it all to charity and ctb anyway

 

[Tyra]

Yes I would still CTB. Money changes nothing in my life.

 

[Manfrotto99]

Absolutely not! I'd buy myself a place in the country and spend my days gardening and tending to my pets. I'd grow fresh produce and flowers to share with others, while my dogs chased one another and played in the sun. I might even do some charity work, maybe even foster a lost soul who needed some love and security over there head. I'd have some cosmetic surgery. Id have options for once in my life!

I've learnt to live in the moment just to survive so i'd keep myself busy, be grateful, walk with my head held high for omce and forget about out all the people who used their wealth and priviledges in life to control and abuse me! There not worth it. I would not look back.

 

[Passenger4224]

I would still CTB because I'm still me. If anything I'd give it all to charity or something.

 

[Manfrotto99]

I would still CTB because I'm still me. If anything I'd give it all to charity or something.

But would you still be you? Wealth does change a person - good or bad. I believe that I'd be a very different person than the one I am now.

 

[Praestat_Mori]

A lack of money made me suicidal after I failed in life. Winning the lottery jackpot would certainly solve this problem, and the bus ticket can be torn apart. But that doesn't mean I wouldn't CTB for other reasons in the future if they cannot be solved with money.

 

[name2come]

If I won the lottery, I 100% wouldn't CTB. My life has gotten to a point where its unsustainable on multiple vectors, but money would solve all of that. Now, in 15-20 years, I may still CTB, but I'd feel like I got there on my own terms. I'd quit my job, leave my partner with half of the money so she could live the life she wants without me, and then I'd go off on my own and see what I could make of it. Like I said, I might end up back here, but the immediate stress of needing to earn a living would be lifted so I could find a way forward for a least a little while. I actually bought lotto tickets last week so I could indulge in the fantasy a little, but I know its just a fantasy. It can be nice to think about how things could be different, but that's not the life I get to live.

 

[FuneralCry]

If I had the option to just peacefully cease existing and never exist again then I'd be long gone no matter what, I'll just always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this terrible, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and nothing would make me wish to exist rather I wish I never suffered at all.

All that existence ever does is just torture existing beings all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist, it's just so terrible how humans cause all this suffering by imposing this existence and to exist will always mean to suffer. I'll just always see this terrible, torturous existence as the problem, for me non-existence is just all that could ever be positive and desirable no matter what, it's just so horrible how the torture of human existence can continue for decades longer just for one to face the terrible extreme agony of old age.

 

[ForeverOutcast]

Yes, I would still ctb because money doesn't take away your memories, your trauma, your depression, or your mind being completely destroyed. It will make getting the material and finding a place to CTB easier, but that's it.

 

[Forveleth]

Yes. I want my life to be over no matter how much money I have.

 

[thousandislandstare]

No, that would definitely provide me with the wiggle room needed to salvage what is left of my life

 

[EternalBliss33]

Yes, but I would delay it just a little bit more so I could experience being away from everyone and everything around me. The only thing that keeps me going is the outlook on experiencing that, even if it's only for a few weeks or months before I ctb.

 

[PsychedeliaSuicide]

I'm not sure ... maybe not, this sort of money could fix a lot of the problems I have. It won't fix the mental aspect which I'm not sure I could overcome but maybe with other problems solved I would be motivated to try. So maybe, maybe not.

 

[aunaltravita]

Actually no, but I think that I would ctb anyway sometime in the future.

But thats so unrealistic to think about, its so hard to think that something like that will happen, just some kind of false hope I guess but anyway, i think imma try to play lottery (never did before lol) a week or two before I go, just like another user said in a thread of my lol

But If I could choose between like 10 Ms and dying right now, I would die immediately.

 

[Passenger4224]

But would you still be you? Wealth does change a person - good or bad. I believe that I'd be a very different person than the one I am now.

I'd still be me yes, born in the wrong body and stuck with several mental disabilities, I'm a certified loser and no amount of money will fix that

 

[latian_xy]

I don't look for CBT but vanish from everyone and everything I know instead. It's absolutely not money related so I would LOVE to win such a thing. I would get a much easier freedom this way, could even maybe confice my relatives to give it without even having to actually vanish!

 

[hdead]

Money works to an extent. In my case? Fuck no.

 

[Drogon]

winning the lottery would fix all of my problems

 

[Die.A.Ria]

Yes it wont make me forget everything ive been through i would probably enjoy some of it but then donate it to a hospital or a charity that i care a lot about