How many of you wish and hope each night that you will be taken that night, and almost convince yourself that it will happen only to wake up again and again?
I know I do
I know I do
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GOODHI
Member
- Nov 7, 2021
- 37
I do too except I'm not really convinced it will happen but I wish it did, I beg and pray to anything because I desperately want to die but I can't bring myself to do it, survival instinct and I'm scared that there's a hell and I will suffer even more
not-2-b-the-answer
Archangel
- Mar 23, 2018
- 11,320
I do, but I wake up every morning and say Fuck!!!!
WorthlessTrash
Worthless
- Apr 19, 2022
- 2,431
Who in this section (that doesn't want to recover) doesn't???Definitely been there. It would have been a blessing at the peak of the onset of my illness. It's a hopeless and desperate feeling. I've started doing a little better lately. Not massively but any improvement is welcome. However having been sedentary for nearly two years and eating poorly, my heart has started feeling like it's under considerable strain. I may end up going that way. A very short walk took my breath away earlier. Last night I tried some press ups because my chest really felt bad. Couldn't even do ten. It's been coming on the last few days but I kind of suspected it might happen a while back. I'm not sure if I should try to turn it around or go with it. Having felt some improvements in my other health issues has me kind of wanting to grasp at some hope but in the back of my mind I don't really believe there's any turning around the other issues significant in my desire for ctb. Do I fight for a maybe? I kind of feel I must. It would be quite convenient to let my health deteriorate and take ending things out of my hands though. A relative of mine had a heart attack and was gone just like that. They say it would have been so fast they didn't feel it. Not sure if I believe that but it would be nice. I just hope, if it happens to me, I don't end up leaving the poor cat starved before I'm found.Last edited:
Lullaby
🌙
- Mar 9, 2022
- 691
Every night, but it's something that's too good to be true, therefore I know it never will lol it's like a suicidal persons equivalent of winning the lottery.I do every night and I'm disappointed that I woke up every morning
Suicidebydeath
No chances to be happy - dead inside
- Nov 25, 2021
- 3,558
It would be nice but I'd like it to be of my own volition too. I just fell asleep for an hour and got shocked awake, I hope its not going to be like that.
FuneralCry
Just wanting some peace
- Sep 24, 2020
- 48,529
Of course I wish for this, but I never actually believe that it will happen. I am tired of waking up, it is the most horrible feeling to wake up and realise that I am still here. To me, passing away in my sleep is the best way to die. I envy those who die that way. I wish that I could make death come easily and peacefully without having to go through the process of planning ctb. It hurts me that it is this difficult to leave this world.
Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,619
Yes,. Constantly.... And then I wake up for my dumbass job and fucked off life. Damntt,. Fml. -
Rational man
Enlightened
- Oct 19, 2021
- 1,482
My progressive disease.will kill me.soon. I.hope.that.a.catastrophic malfunction occurs.and.then i.wont.exist.
MaybeThisTime
Member
- Apr 21, 2022
- 13
Me too
Me too
I actually looked up the odds the other day. And male dying in his sleep is like 1 in 250000
So yeah it similar
I actually looked up the odds the other day. And male dying in his sleep is like 1 in 250000
So yeah it similarLast edited:It just happened to actor Ray Liotta last night, died peacefully in his sleep---Wish that happens to me soon
Huntfish34
Enlightened
- Mar 13, 2020
- 1,619
Damn. I didn't know that,. He was a pretty Damn good actor Imo. May he R.I.P. always and forever.Actually every night i send my wish to whatever just to take me away from this world. I really dont want to wake up anymore.
Lebensunwertes
Du bist auf dich allein gestellt
- May 26, 2022
- 141
I never "convince" myself that it will happen. That's a delusion. I do, however, hope that I'll be granted a sudden and peaceful death in my sleep due to some underlying genetic disease. You have not known the day nor the time.
Rational man
Enlightened
- Oct 19, 2021
- 1,482
he was 67.
Alan White,
drummer of Yes died too. Icon band of the 80s but to me their music was ageless heavy stuff.
I've never seen anyone die peacefully. My parents died appallingly and some friends who died of various disease had awful painful deaths. One friend was 28, he was incredibly handsome and yet his whole body had to wither away with cancer before he died. If he had the strength im sure he would have taken other options.Last edited:
Yeah, when you hear that people died 'peacefully in their sleep',I wonder about that--Btw Yes was an icon band of the early 80's indeed but they were 70's icon first, Roundbout(1972)
I once wrote a book which ended with "Comme c'est doux de mourir!"
20+ years of wishing it every damn' night. since SHTC with health and other affairs. So don't want to press the CTB button. Would be nice to go on my own. Somehow, the heart fails not to beat.Last edited:
~Q~
Waiting for the bus
- May 20, 2022
- 93
Fadeawaaaay
Visionary
- Nov 12, 2021
- 2,156
That's the way my dad passed away. But he was 87 with a heart condition. Yes I wish this would happen to me. Would solve a lot of problems.
wanttodie
Enlightened
- Apr 19, 2018
- 1,823
Every night. Last night I told myself "I wish I died in my sleep tonight. A peaceful death."
Waking up is the worst part of the day.Last edited:
Liferunner
Waiting to exit...
- May 1, 2022
- 19
novem
Experienced
- May 9, 2022
- 273
Hirokami
Out of order
- Feb 21, 2021
- 607
I stopped wishing for that long ago. While my mind is shot, my physiology is near perfect. I'd have a better chance getting hit by a meteor than dying in my sleep.Not since i was a teenager.
I know I'm gonna do this and the exact date is set so it's actually the other way around.
I don't want to think about death while I'm still breathing.
LeapOfFaith
Member
- Jul 16, 2020
- 80
My anxiety starts before I open my eyes every morning. The feeling of waking up is one of the worst ones. It's like waking up to a never-ending cycle of nightmares. I understand that I probably won't die in my sleep but that would be the perfect ending. I just want to be unconscious. I can feel my heart beating faster & faster as soon as I wake up. It's like having a panic-attack every morning.
So to answer your question.. Yes I wish to die in my sleep every night and I usually try to imagine it just to comfort me before falling asleep.Last edited:Similar threads
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