How do you decide when it's time to CTB?

[JaegerBombastic]

I'm so miserable. Every night I go to sleep and hope I don't wake up. Obviously, I've been considering CTB for a while now; I already have a plan in place. But I can't seem to get this feeling out of my head that maybe I should wait. I think I'm hoping things will be different, or that my mental health will suddenly get better.

It's not that I have any strong desire to keep living, I just don't know when the right moment will come. I'm so tired.

 

[avstin]

there is never a right moment. maybe one day a sudden trigger will come, many people take their lives on impulse, but there is no perfect moment:( a better tomorrow may or may not come; at some point you just get tired of waiting

 

[JaegerBombastic]

there is never a right moment. maybe one day a sudden trigger will come, many people take their lives on impulse, but there is no perfect moment:( a better tomorrow may or may not come; at some point you just get tired of waiting

It feels like that's what's gonna end up happening. I think I'm just so anxious about it, I don't want it to happen on a whim.

 

[finalmission]

When I will be mentally strong enough, so might be tomorrow or next week, month (i hope tomorrow)

 

[avstin]

It feels like that's what's gonna end up happening. I think I'm just so anxious about it, I don't want it to happen on a whim.

all I can say is - take your time. there is no need to rush someting as inevitable as death. I think there's no point in stressing about it, and it's better to approach it calmly. think it through, make peace with leaving. if you ever need someone to talk to, don't be afraid to reach out:) and take care, I wish you all the best