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Phobia_DLW

Phobia_DLW

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May 18, 2026
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Would it be relief? Pain? Regret? Life flashing in front of your eyes? Panic? Would it feel like you are floating?

I often find myself regretting things that have been done to me in the past, I wonder if in those final moments I will forget them and finally feel peace, even if for a few moments.
 
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Corovaner

Corovaner

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
211
I try to not think about my final moments. If I ever make this final decision, I would try to think only about my main goal, which is death.
 
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itsallogrenow

itsallogrenow

27/5/26 - D Day
Jun 13, 2024
251
I try to not think about my final moments. If I ever make this final decision, I would try to think only about my main goal, which is death.
I'm the same. I think I'll be too busy worrying that it won't work and I'll wake up again
 
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Phobia_DLW

Phobia_DLW

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May 18, 2026
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I try to not think about my final moments. If I ever make this final decision, I would try to think only about my main goal, which is death.
Would it not be cool to finally feel some relief and peace at the very end? Haven't felt peaceful in such a long time.
 
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Corovaner

Corovaner

Experienced
Apr 15, 2025
211
Would it not be cool to finally feel some relief and peace at the very end? Haven't felt peaceful in such a long time.
It would be wonderful) But I can't feel relief without 100% reliable method, and sn is not 100% guaranteed death.
 
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BPDTalk

Member
Apr 25, 2026
10
I hope the process is truly peaceful, as some survivors of near-death experiences (NDEs) have reported. In the end, we'll be shown good memories for a moment, completely stopping ourselves from remembering the bad ones forever.
 
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Corovaner

Corovaner

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Apr 15, 2025
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I hope the process is truly peaceful, as some survivors of near-death experiences (NDEs) have reported. In the end, we'll be shown good memories for a moment, completely stopping ourselves from remembering the bad ones forever.
As I remember, brain begins to throw endorphines in a blood vessel in a few moments before death. Correct me, If I'm wrong.
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
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I do wonder about it. I wonder if it will be like falling to sleep. There isn't often a clear moment for me when I fall to sleep. I'm awake one moment, asleep the next. I wonder if the transition between life and death is like that.

I worry too about having a nightmare before I die. What if I dream I go to hell?
 
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Endisclose

Specialist
Oct 23, 2023
398
Sn can be not pure enough, or it can be expired.
From what I've read, SN has a pretty long shelf life as long as it's stored properly. Do you have any evidence of any cases leading to failed attempts where the SN expired/was past the expiry date, but the package/container was never opened?
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
4,201
I do not know how close I was to dying, but both of my attempts had me sink into an inky blackness, like a dreamless sleep. I have heard the majority of NDE's report something similar. Even if it is terrifying, I am ok with that. I will take a few minutes of terror to avoid a lifetime of suffering.

It would be wonderful) But I can't feel relief without 100% reliable method, and sn is not 100% guaranteed death.
A 100% reliable method does not exist. Your method is going to be living out your natural life
 
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enne

enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
71
there was one time when i knew it was about to happen (my health had deteriorated so much) i was contemplating on drowning in the tub, was laying there. staring at the ceiling.
submerged in and out the water.
calmness approached
i then transported to being at the giant pool as a child with my dad then it all went black

woke up to him banging on the bathroom door
 
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Phobia_DLW

Phobia_DLW

Member
May 18, 2026
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there was one time when i knew it was about to happen (my health had deteriorated so much) i was contemplating on drowning in the tub, was laying there. staring at the ceiling.
submerged in and out the water.
calmness approached
i then transported to being at the giant pool as a child with my dad then it all went black

woke up to him banging on the bathroom door
Wow thank you for the insight, did you feel anything other than calm?
 
enne

enne

blood sport
May 13, 2026
71
Wow thank you for the insight, did you feel anything other than calm?
i honestly think if he hadn't of tried to check on me and wake me in that time i would've just slipped into that dream and passed. i wish he would've just let me drift.
i think i was even sober. my body and mind just were ready.
 
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