iwashere
Munching Brotato
- Jun 2, 2025
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Something I see very often on here is people saying that they cannot bring themselves to get over the guilt of leaving all their loved ones behind. While this is something that sporadically affects me in short bursts, I have for the most part completely tuned that part of my brain out. So much so, that I forgot it was a big reason people don't CTB in the first place!! I want to share the ways I essentially (unintentionally) desensitized myself to those thoughts.
the r/SuicideBereavement subreddit!
you're probably wondering, how the HELL did that subreddit help you at ALL?!
the specific posts you choose to read!!
specifically, i'm talking about NOTES, REASONS, THOUGHTS!!
there are a plethora of posts detailing loved ones notes, final thoughts, what they posted on social media. what you'll find in that their thoughts and notes are hauntingly similar to exact things we've written in our own journals, our own notes and messages, things we've said to ourselves. it's eerily real, bleak but most importantly eye-opening. these are people who felt the exact same ways we did, had the same questions we had, felt the same confusion we do, the same hopelessness we feel.
and they did something about it.
and we're here, reading their words. their stories, unfiltered the way THEY want it told.
and the comments?
support, love. THEY UNDERSTAND! they don't BLAME. how could they? in a bittersweet moment, they typically relish at the fact that, while they can't change anything that's happened and the grief runs through their bodies—their happy their loved one is finally at peace. and when youre really deep in those moments of "i can't do this anymore", really all you need is someone validating what you're thinking.
it's painful, but done correctly, nobody will blame you for what you've done!!
the r/SuicideBereavement subreddit!
you're probably wondering, how the HELL did that subreddit help you at ALL?!
the specific posts you choose to read!!
specifically, i'm talking about NOTES, REASONS, THOUGHTS!!
there are a plethora of posts detailing loved ones notes, final thoughts, what they posted on social media. what you'll find in that their thoughts and notes are hauntingly similar to exact things we've written in our own journals, our own notes and messages, things we've said to ourselves. it's eerily real, bleak but most importantly eye-opening. these are people who felt the exact same ways we did, had the same questions we had, felt the same confusion we do, the same hopelessness we feel.
and they did something about it.
and we're here, reading their words. their stories, unfiltered the way THEY want it told.
and the comments?
support, love. THEY UNDERSTAND! they don't BLAME. how could they? in a bittersweet moment, they typically relish at the fact that, while they can't change anything that's happened and the grief runs through their bodies—their happy their loved one is finally at peace. and when youre really deep in those moments of "i can't do this anymore", really all you need is someone validating what you're thinking.
it's painful, but done correctly, nobody will blame you for what you've done!!
idk maybe that's my troglodyte brain talking tho.
