Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I no longer exist.
I truly will only be at peace once I no longer exist and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope for the peace of non-existence.

All I hope for is to never suffer again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace from all the pain and suffering of existing.

For me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable, all I hope for is to never exist again and in this existence so cruel and torturous non-existence is just the only peace, it's all I hope for, I just want to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering continues and I always suffer from how I cannot just choose to find peace from this dreadful, torturous existence that only ever caused me to suffer so unnecessarily and I just suffer so much as a result of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is just always so terrible to me.
No matter what I'll just always find it so terrible to suffer in this existence that just causes all these pain, suffering and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief I search for from this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone.

I just hope for non-existence, only non-existence could ever be desirable for me in this existence so dreadful I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only hope for eternal sleep, I wish for no more pain and I just always find it so painful to be burdened with this existence suffering so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this cruel, terrible existence and there's just so much suffering in existing.