Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as only suffering.
No matter what I really will always see existing as only suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, dreadful and torturous existence rather all I want is to not exist and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this futile existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.

I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this deeply undesirable, futile existence I never would had chosen that only ever brought so much pain.

I'm just always so tired of suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I'd never wish for any of this suffering rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence destined to decay and die anyway, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's just all so cruel and terrible to me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence can bring me any relief.
It truly is all that can bring me any relief and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, only non-existence can bring me peace from the suffering and cruelty of this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this, as long as I exist I really will just hope for the peace of an eternal sleep, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had wished for that only ever caused and brought so much pain and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want all to be gone for me in non-existence and only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from this existence of unnecessary suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm.
It really does just cause harm with no limit as to how much one can suffer and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just hope and wish to never suffer ever again.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the mistake of existence and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for this torturous, harmful existence rather all I want is the peace of eternal sleep, I just hope and wish to never exist again and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so undesirable, cruel and painful to me and I'll always see it as an abomination to suffer so unnecessarily, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from this torturous, harmful existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to cease existing anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes so much suffering.
It truly does just cause so much suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence, in this existence so dreadful only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for.

All want is to never suffer again and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm, suffering and cruelty as a result and I suffer simply from existing.

All I want is to be gone, I just wish to be free from this torturous, cruel existence I never would had chosen, all I hope and wish for is to never exist again with this existence finally all forgotten and there's just so much suffering in existing, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I'd just never wish to suffer in this tortuous existence I never would had chosen no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wishing for non-existence.
No matter what all I could wish and hope for is non-existence and only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all suffering and cruelty.

I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's just all so dreadful and I'd just never wish to suffer in this existence rather all I want is an eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I can be at peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence.

I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this futile, undesirable existence I just never would had chosen, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I'll always see this existence as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me and it always feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I'd never wish for that just caused and brought me so much pain.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I really am just always so tired of it all and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just wish for non-existence to bring me peace from this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful that I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, for me non-existence is just all that's desirable, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief, all I want is to never exist ever again.

I'll always find it so terrible and dreadful to suffer in this existence so cruel and torturous and I suffer simply from existing, it's suffering only permanent non-existence could ever take away for me, all I want is to permanently cease existing, I wish for no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

For me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence so torturous that I never would had chosen that I always saw as such a cruel mistake and I suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, non-existence is just all I could wish for, I wish for no more suffering and I'll just always see this existence as only suffering, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful that I never would had chosen.

 

[davidtorez]

Non-existence is just the only peace for me.
It really is the only peace for me and is all I see as desirable in this existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering with no limit as to how much agony one can feel and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer.

For me non-existence really is the only peace in this existence so torturous that I never would had chosen that I always saw as such a cruel mistake and I suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again, non-existence is just all I could wish for, I wish for no more suffering and I'll just always see this existence as only suffering, all I want is to never suffer ever again, I just wish for peace and for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful that I never would had chosen.

I would have never chosen to exist too. Its a shame we can't give consent to come into this hell realm

 

[FuneralCry]

All I see as desirable is never suffering again.
To never suffer again really is all I see as desirable and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this unnecessary, undesirable and torturous existence I never would had chosen and there's just so much suffering in existing.

It's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and all I want is to be free from it all, I'd just never wish for any of this and all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence and there's just so much pain and suffering in this cruel, futile and torturous existence I never would had wished for and never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer in this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence ever again, all I want is peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for this torturous, cruel existence.
No matter what I really would never wish for this torturous, cruel existence of unnecessary suffering and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, in this existence where there's all this suffering and cruelty with no limit as to how much one can be tortured only non-existence can bring me any peace and all I see as desirable is never suffering ever again.

I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'd just never wish to suffer in this torturous, cruel existence, for me non-existence really is the only relief and is all I could hope for.

I'd just never wish for the pain and suffering of existing rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer and only non-existence can bring me the relief from suffering I search for, I just want all to be finally gone for me, I just want to never suffer again and I just always suffer so much as a result of this deeply undesirable existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always wishing to erase this existence.
I truly am always wishing to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this dreadful, torturous existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this deeply undesirable, cruel and futile existence I always saw as a mistake and just never would had chosen.

All I want is to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for, I always wish to erase this existence, all I want is to never suffer again and I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, dreadful existence rather all I want is to not exist, for me non-existence really is all I see as desirable and is all I could wish for. I just hope to be permanently free from all cruelty and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just hope to never suffer in this dreadful existence that just causes and brings suffering ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

There is so much suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and dreadful to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the abomination of existence that I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, it's all I see as desirable, all I hope and wish for is to never suffer ever again in this torturous existence but of course all the suffering just continues and there's just so much suffering in this futile, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace from the pain and suffering of this dreadful, cruel and deeply undesirable existence that only ever caused and brought so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping to never suffer again.
No matter what all I could hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all pain, cruelty and suffering where this deeply undesirable, painful existence is all gone and forgotten, I just want some peace.

I just want all to be gone for me and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, I really do just want to never exist again, I wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in non-existence, I just want all to be gone for me, I wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, deeply undesirable cruel and torturous existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and finally bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, futile existence, all I want is to never suffer again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this dreadful existence is all gone, forgotten and no longer my problem and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I no longer suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings until the peace of non-existence takes away all anyway.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existence as the problem.
No matter what I really would always see existence as the problem and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, all I hope for is an eternal sleep free from all cruelty and suffering where this dreadful, torturous, cruel existence is all gone and forgotten but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I just wish I never suffered in this terrible, futile existence more than anything and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never suffer ever again with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence all gone and forgotten but of course all the suffering just continues.


I'd never wish to suffer in this cruel, painful existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence is just the only relief, it's all I see as desirable, only in non-existence will I be at peace from the pain and suffering in this dreadful existence which is why it's all I hope for, I just want to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for non-existence.
No matter what non-existence really is all I could hope for, all I want is to never suffer in this dreadful, deeply undesirable cruel and torturous existence ever again, I just wish for an eternal sleep free from all cruelty, pain and suffering where this existence I always saw as a mistake is all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so cruel and terrible to me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone.

All I want is to never suffer again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist, no matter what I could only ever see non-existence as desirable and I'll just only be at peace from suffering in non-existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again as all I see as desirable is dreamless, eternal sleep where all is finally forgotten and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this dreadful torturous existence I'd just never wish for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I could see as positive.
It truly is all I see as positive and is all I could hope for in this dreadful, torturous existence where there's all this cruelty and suffering, all I want is to be gone, in this existence so cruel only eternal sleep is desirable for me and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again.

I wish for non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for, all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for the relief of non-existence where finally all is forgotten, for me non-existence truly is all I see as desirable, it's all I hope for, I just wish for permanent peace from the suffering and cruelty of existing and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering, the peace of an eternal sleep truly is all I see as positive, I just want some peace, I just hope to never exist ever again where finally all is gone for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again.
I truly do always suffer from how I cannot just have a death like never waking again so finally I can be at peace from all suffering and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in this dreadful, torturous existence.

All want is to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, for me eternal sleep really is all that's positive and desirable, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I suffer so much.

It's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to never wake again, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all that's positive for me in this existence so torturous and dreadful that I never would had chosen, all I want is for some peace, I just want to never wake ever again, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of being burdened with this existence.
I really am just always so tired of being burdened with this existence and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, all I want is to never suffer again, I just want to be gone, as long as I exist I'll just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this torturous existence is all gone, forgotten and no longer my problem.

I'll just always see it as the most dreadful burden to exist, I just want to be free from it all, I just hope and wish to never suffer again but of course I continue to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally all is forgotten and I'm at peace from this dreadful, cruel and futile existence and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so terrible and dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to be permanently free from this cruel, futile existence that only ever caused me to suffer.

 

[FuneralCry]

There's just so much suffering in existing.
There really is just so much suffering in this dreadful, torturous existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

As long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer again, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

I'll just always see it as an abomination to exist and it's one that just causes endless amounts of cruelty, harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I just wish I never suffered and I find it the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed, I always suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence and I'll always see existing as just being suffering. I always suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is for all to be forgotten for me, I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering ever again, I wish for no more suffering, I just wish for non-existence, only being permanently free from all futile, unnecessary suffering is desirable for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired.
I truly am just always so tired of it all and it's the kind of tiredness only non-existence can bring me peace from, I just want to never wake again with no more suffering, as long as I exist I really will just hope for the peace of eternal sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing.


No matter what I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer, only non-existence is desirable for me and is all that can bring me the peace I search for from the terrible tragic mistake of existence that I just never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so dreadful to me and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like never waking ever again to finally escape from the pain, suffering and cruelty of this existence I just never would had chosen, all I want is non-existence, I just hope and wish to never suffer again with this futile, cruel and deeply undesirable existence finally all gone and I'd never wish to exist rather all I hope for is to not exist, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence I never would had chosen.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peace for me could only lie in an eternal sleep.
It truly is the only peace for me and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence no matter what, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never suffer again and I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this cruel, dreadful existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to be free from it all, I wish for no more suffering and I just always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

All I hope for is dreamless eternal sleep, it truly is all I could see as desirable, I'd just never wish for this futile existence that just causes and brings so much suffering all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never exist again with this existence finally no longer my problem, I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is just so cruel.
It truly is so cruel and I'd just never wish to suffer in this futile, torturous existence rather all I want is to be gone, I just wish for peace.

I'll only be at peace once I'm no longer burdened with this cruel existence I always saw as a mistake that I just never would had chosen that only ever causes me to suffer and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes and brings suffering.
It truly does just cause and bring suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer again, for me non-existence truly is the only relief from this existence of futile unnecessary suffering I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll only wish to never exist again.

 

[FinishingTouches]

Why only Nembutal is an option? There are other peaceful ways, like opioid overdose with benzos or barbiturates.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing and all I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and as long as I exist I'll just hope to never suffer again.

I just wish for peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally free from the dreadful, torturous, painful and futile burden of existence I never would had chosen and would just never wish for, all I hope for is no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this cruel existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to erase this existence.
I truly do always wish to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and futile existence at all but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I'd never wish for any of this rather I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me, I always wish to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, I just want this existence to finally no longer be my problem but of course all the suffering just continues and I always suffer so much as a result of existing, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering rather I just want some peace and this existence is just so cruel.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious.
I truly will only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious and the peace of non-existence is just all I could hope for, all I want is to never exist ever again.

I just wish for non-existence where finally all is gone and forgotten and I can be at permanent peace from this existence I always saw as the most cruel terrible mistake and there's just so much cruelty and so much suffering in existing, all I want is to be free from it all. I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from this existence so cruel, torturous and dreadful that I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, I just want to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist again.