Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I see nothing desirable about prolonging the suffering of existing and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long already.

All I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I really do find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this deeply undesirable torturous existence just to die in agony from old age, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes suffering and harm.
It truly does just cause suffering and harm and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence I only ever saw as a mistake that just caused me to suffer and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, existence to me really is an abomination and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see it as so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering endlessly, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is for all to be gone for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering, for me only dreamless eternal sleep could ever be desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable, torturous existence where I suffer so much just waiting to die anyway and there's just so much suffering in this existence, I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, all I want is to be free from it all.

I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently unconscious where I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer again and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence that to me is just always so dreadful, as long as I exist I'll just always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It really is all that's desirable for me and is all I'll hope for in this existence where there's all this futile suffering.

All I hope and wish for is to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful, cruel and terrible and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to cease existing, all I see as desirable is true permanent peace and I see nothing desirable about being enslaved in this futile, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and there's so much suffering in this cruel existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for.