Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

I find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long.
It truly is so terrifying to me how a human can suffer for so long in this cruel, torturous existence, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I see nothing desirable about prolonging the suffering of existing and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long already.

All I want is to be gone, I wish for no more suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so dreadful to me and I'd never wish for any of this, I really do find it terrifying how a human can suffer for so long in this deeply undesirable torturous existence just to die in agony from old age, all I want is to never suffer ever again and I always suffer so much as a result of this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes suffering and harm.
It truly does just cause suffering and harm and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful, cruel and torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never suffer again.

I just wish for non-existence to bring me the peace I search for from this harmful existence I only ever saw as a mistake that just caused me to suffer and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing, existence to me really is an abomination and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, as long as I exist I really will just wish and hope to be gone, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from this existence I just never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing, I'll always see it as so harmful to be conscious burdened with this existence capable of suffering endlessly, as long as I exist I'll just wish and hope to never exist again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing will always be only suffering to me.
It really will always be only suffering to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous and cruel existence I always saw as a mistake that I never would had chosen and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so terrible and dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is for all to be gone for me in non-existence with no more pain and no more suffering, for me only dreamless eternal sleep could ever be desirable and as long as I exist I'll only hope to never suffer ever again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this deeply undesirable, torturous existence where I suffer so much just waiting to die anyway and there's just so much suffering in this existence, I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so dreadful.
No matter what I'll always find it so dreadful to suffer in this existence and I just wish I never suffered more than anything, as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this existence as only suffering, all I want is to be free from it all.

I just wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in being permanently unconscious where I no longer suffer so unnecessarily in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain in existing, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful existence I just never would had chosen and would never wish for, for me non-existence is just the only peace and is all I see as desirable, I just want to never suffer again and it feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence that to me is just always so dreadful, as long as I exist I'll just always have so much dread for what lies ahead.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is all that's desirable for me.
It really is all that's desirable for me and is all I'll hope for in this existence where there's all this futile suffering.

All I hope and wish for is to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in this torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful, cruel and terrible and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to cease existing, all I see as desirable is true permanent peace and I see nothing desirable about being enslaved in this futile, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist again and I'll just always see existing as only suffering no matter what, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and there's so much suffering in this cruel existence, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will just always see it as an abomination to exist and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist again, I just wish for true permanent peace from the abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It's all so cruel and torturous and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again with this dreadful, futile existence finally no longer my problem, I just hope and wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in an dreamless eternal sleep. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'd just never wish for the cruel and painful abomination of existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

 

[developic]

To exist is always an abomination to me.
No matter what I really will just always see it as an abomination to exist and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, futile, torturous and dreadful existence more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

I just want to never exist again, I just wish for true permanent peace from the abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake causing and bringing all this harm and suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

It's all so cruel and torturous and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to be gone, I just want to never wake again with this dreadful, futile existence finally no longer my problem, I just hope and wish for peace and for me peace could only lie in an dreamless eternal sleep. I wish for no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, I'd just never wish for the cruel and painful abomination of existence rather all I want is some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm unconscious for all eternity with no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of the abomination of existence.

Life is like a plant when a flower is hurt, it doesn't bloom overnight. It heals slowly, gathering strength, until one day it blossoms brighter than before.

 

[FuneralCry]

I'll just always see existing as waiting to die.
No matter what I'll always see existing as waiting to die and I always suffer so much from waiting for death in this futile, deeply undesirable torturous existence, all I want is to be gone.

I just want to never suffer ever again, existing to me is just so futile and I could never see any point to any of this, it's all just unnecessary suffering and I always suffer so much as a result of this cruel, torturous existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish for some peace and I'll only be at peace once I'm finally unconscious for all eternity, all I hope for is to never suffer again, I just wish to be free from this existence that to me is just waiting to die but of course I wish I never suffered more than anything, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence is positive to me.
It truly is all that's positive for me and is all that can bring me the relief I search for from the abomination of existence, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

All I want is to be free from it all, I just want to never suffer again and there's just so much suffering in existing, no matter what I'll only hope and wish for non-existence, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and as long as I exist I'll just wish for non-existence.

I just want non-existence to bring me the peace I search for and I'll just only be at peace once I'm permanently unconscious with this existence no longer my problem, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, all I want is to never suffer again and to me existing will always be only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just want all to finally be gone, only non-existence could ever be positive for me.

 

[FuneralCry]

To exist is always so torturous.
I really will always find it so torturous to suffer in this existence and I'd just never wish for the suffering of this existence rather all I want is to permanently cease existing.

I just wish for non-existence to finally bring me the relief I search for from the terrible, torturous abomination of existence I always saw as a mistake and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish to be free from it all, I just wish to never exist again with this cruel, futile existence finally all forgotten, I'll just always find it so torturous to exist and simply just existing is enough to make me wish to permanently cease existing, for me existence itself will just always be the true problem and I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed causing and bringing all this harm and suffering as a result.