Venting General thread for my vents about wanting to die

[FuneralCry]

Only hoping for all to be gone and forgotten for me.
No matter what all I could ever hope is for all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence, I just wish for the peace of non-existence where finally all is gone but of course I continue to suffer and I'll always see this cruel, dreadful existence as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and for me non-existence is just all that's desirable.

All I want is to never exist again with this existence finally no longer my problem, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, I wish I could erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, all I want is to never exist again, I just wish for all to be gone for me, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to not exist, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is just so futile to me.
It truly is so futile to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this cruel, futile existence I always saw as a mistake, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I see as desirable and is all I hope for.

I just want to never suffer ever again but of course I continue to be burdened with this torturous, deeply undesirable existence suffering so unnecessarily and it's all so cruel and dreadful to me, I could never see any point to any of this and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than suffer.

Only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and I suffer simply from existing, it's all just so dreadful, I find it dreadful how this existence of futile unnecessary suffering was even imposed causing all this harm and suffering as a result, to me existence will always be an abomination and it's one so futile that just causes existing beings to suffer and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence will always feel like a mistake to me.
It really will always feel like a mistake to me and it's one only non-existence can bring me peace and relief from.

I always wish that more than anything I never suffered in this dreadful and torturous existence but of course all the suffering just continues and I suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I'll always see it as an abomination to exist.

I'll always see existence as the problem that just causes harm and suffering until non-existence takes away all anyway, I'd never wish for any of this and as long as I exist I'll just hope to be gone. I just wish to be permanently free from the mistake of existence that just causes so much suffering as a result, existence to me will always be an abomination and I wish I never suffered more than anything, I just suffer so much as a result of this futile, deeply undesirable existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always so undesirable to me.
It really is always so undesirable to me and I just wish that more than anything I never suffered in this existence, all I wish for is non-existence and as long as I exist I'll only hope to be gone, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I find it so undesirable to be burdened with this existence.

All I wish for is peace and I always suffer so much from being trapped in this futile, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake, non-existence really is all I hope for and is all I could wish for, I just want to never suffer again with this dreadful existence all gone and forgotten and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I suffer simply from existing. I suffer so much as existing is so undesirable, for me non-existence really is all that's positive and desirable, I'd never wish for this torturous existence of unnecessary suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, I'll always see existing as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence is a burden.
No matter what I'll always see existence as a burden and it's one that just causes harm and suffering torturing existing beings and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence.

It's all so terrible to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, I'll just always see it as the most dreadful burden to exist and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never exist again, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I'll always see existing as just being suffering all for the sake of it and all I want is to be gone from it all, in this existence so futile and dreadful I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me peace from the burden of existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always so tired of it all.
I really am just always so tired of it all and it's tiredness only non-existence can take away for me, all I hope for is to never suffer ever again and only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from the suffering of this futile, torturous existence.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only eternal dreamless sleep could ever take away for me, I just want all to be gone and forgotten in non-existence with no more suffering and as long as I exist I'll only hope for non-existence. Only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace from suffering I search for and there's just so much suffering in existing, it really is all so cruel to me and there's just so much cruelty in this deeply undesirable, painful and torturous existence, it really feels like I've suffered for so long in this existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only wish for peace.
No matter what all I could ever hope for is some peace from the pain and suffering of this torturous existence, I just want all to finally be gone for me but of course all the suffering just continues and it's all so terrible to me.

I wish I never suffered more than anything and I'd just never wish for this existence that just causes and brings so much pain, problems and suffering all for the sake of it rather all I want is some peace.

I just wish for no more suffering and I suffer so much as a result of being conscious burdened with this cruel, deeply undesirable and torturous existence, for me non-existence truly is the only relief and is all I could ever hope for in this existence so torturous and dreadful, I just want to never wake ever again with no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's just all so cruel and undesirable to me and I'd never wish for any of this.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty in existing.
There truly is just so much cruelty in existing and I'd never wish for this cruel, torturous existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake rather all I want is to not exist, I just want to never exist again with all finally forgotten for me.

I'll always see it as so terrible how there's all this cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much agony one can feel, all I want is to be gone, I just hope to be free from it all, I just want to never exist again with no more cruelty, no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, futile existence I never would had chosen and never would had wished for.

For me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable, I wish to never suffer again, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only the peace of non-existence could ever take away for me, I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much suffering in existing.
There really is so much suffering in existing and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and it's all so dreadful to me.

I really would just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to cease existing, I just want to never suffer again with this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence all forgotten about and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and cruel to me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence can take away for me, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again with all finally gone for me, I'll always see this existence as only suffering no matter what.

 

[_Gollum_]

You're right on the money about the cruelty of life. I can't even fathom how much suffering there is in the world. Living as a biological organism is a truly horrendous curse.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so dreadful to me.
It really is always so dreadful to me and I wish that more than anything I never suffered in this torturous, cruel existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so cruel and terrible to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything.

I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer in this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me and finally bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and there's just so much suffering in this torturous, cruel existence I always saw as a mistake.

 

[FuneralCry]

So much cruelty and suffering in existing.
There truly is so much suffering and cruelty in existing and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just want to never exist again with all forgotten for me in non-existence and there's just so much pain, suffering and cruelty in existing.

I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake ever again, I wish for no more suffering and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, all I want is to be gone from it all, I just hope and wish to never exist again with this deeply undesirable, cruel and dreadful existence all forgotten, there really just is so much suffering in existing and it's suffering only non-existence can bring me peace from and in this existence so torturous and futile only non-existence could ever be desirable for me, I just hope for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wishing to erase my existence.
I really am always wishing to erase this existence so it's like I never suffered, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I always saw as a mistake, all I want is to be gone.

I just wish to never exist again with this torturous, dreadful and deeply undesirable existence finally all forgotten and I'd just never wish for any of this rather all I want is to cease existing, only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself and I suffer simply from existing.

It's just all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is some peace, I just wish for all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist than suffer so unnecessarily no matter what, only non-existence can bring me the relief I search for and as long as I exist I'll only wish to erase this existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Non-existence is just all I wish for.
It truly is all I wish for and is all that can bring me the peace I search for from the pain and suffering of existing, I just hope and wish to never suffer again but of course all the suffering continues and it's all so dreadful, more than anything I wish I never suffered in this cruel existence and I suffer simply from existing.

It's suffering only non-existence can take away for me and bring me peace from, for me non-existence is just the only relief in this existence so torturous and cruel and I suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just hope and wish to never exist ever again but of course all the suffering continues and it's all so terrible to me, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Suffer so much as a result of existing.
I truly do suffer so much as a result of existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, all I wish and hope for is to never suffer again but of course the suffering continues and I suffer simply from existing, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never existed more than anything, as long as I exist I really will just hope to never suffer again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the relief I search for from existing, I just want to never suffer ever again, all I hope for is peace and I'll only be at peace in non-existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Just always so tired.
I truly am always so tired of it all and I'd never wish to exist rather all I want is to permanently cease existing, I just want some peace and for me peace could only lie in never suffering again, I just want non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so dreadful and futile and I suffer simply from existing, all I see a desirable is non-existence, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I'll always see this cruel, futile existence as only suffering no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Never wishing for any of this.
No matter what I really would never wish for any of this and I wish I never suffered in this cruel, torturous futile and deeply undesirable existence more than anything, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me any peace and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had wished for and just never would had chosen and I'll just always see existing as only suffering.

It's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and bring me any relief from, I always find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was imposed and I just suffer so much as a result of existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never wake again, I wish for no more pain and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of this dreadful, torturous existence I just never would had chosen that only ever caused and brought so much suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

To suffer in this existence is always so undesirable to me.
It truly is always so undesirable to me and I just wish I never suffered more than anything in this dreadful, torturous existence, for me non-existence is just the only relief and is all I see as desirable.

All I want is to never exist again with all finally gone and forgotten, I wish for no more pain, no more cruelty and no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this existence, I'd just never wish to suffer rather all I want is true permanent peace.

I just wish for non-existence to solve everything for me in this existence so torturous and dreadful and I suffer simply from existing, it's just all so cruel to me and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, all I want is to be gone, I just wish to never suffer again, I really will always find it so deeply undesirable to suffer in this existence I just always saw as the most terrible mistake and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

All that existence does is just cause harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just wish I never suffered more than anything.

In this existence so dreadful and cruel only non-existence can bring me peace and is just all that's desirable for me, I'd never wish for this harmful, torturous existence where I suffer so unnecessarily just waiting to not exist, I'll always see existing as just being waiting for death, it's just futile unnecessary suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I suffer simply from being burdened with this existence that just causes harm and suffering and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel and terrible and it feels like I've suffered so much for so long in this existence I just never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer so unnecessarily.
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[FuneralCry]

Always preferring to not exist than suffer.
No matter what I really would always prefer to not exist than suffer and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in this dreadful, torturous existence I just always saw as a mistake and I suffer simply from existing.

I'd just never wish to suffer in this cruel, torturous and deeply undesirable existence, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this existence where I suffer so unnecessarily and I'll always see existing as only suffering, it's all so terrible and dreadful and as long as I exist I'll only hope for peace from it all.

For me non-existence really is all that's positive and is all I see as desirable in this existence so cruel and dreadful that I always saw as a mistake and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so cruel to me and I'd never wish for any of this rather all I want is to never suffer again, only non-existence can solve everything for me and bring me the peace I search for from the terrible, dreadful abomination of existence.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existing is always just waiting to die to me.
It really is always just waiting to die to me and I suffer simply from existing, I'd just never wish to suffer in this dreadful cruel existence rather all I want is to not exist.

I just wish for the peace of an eternal sleep where this existence I always saw as the most terrible tragic mistake is finally all gone and forgotten and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing, it's all so terrible to me, I suffer simply from existing and it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me. I just want to never suffer ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of being conscious in this existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me and I'll always see existing as just waiting for death, only non-existence can bring me the peace I search for from this dreadful, deeply undesirable and cruel existence I just never would had chosen, to me existence really is an abomination and I find it the most terrible, dreadful tragedy how this existence was even imposed at all, I'd just never wish for the suffering of existing rather all I want is to never exist ever again.

 

[FuneralCry]

Peace from the cruelty, suffering and torture of existing is just all I hope for.
It really is all I hope for and is all I see as desirable, I just wish and hope to never suffer ever again but of course all the suffering continues and I always suffer so much from how I cannot just have a death like falling into an eternal dreamless sleep to finally escape and find peace from this torturous existence I always saw as the most cruel, terrible mistake.

For me non-existence is just all that's desirable and is just all I hope for, I'd never wish to suffer at all and I'll always see existing as only suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured, for me non-existence is just the only relief from the cruelty and suffering of existing and I suffer simply from existing, it really is all so cruel to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, only non-existence can bring me the peace and relief from suffering I search for and there's just so much suffering and so much cruelty in existing.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only hope to be gone.
No matter what I really could only ever hope to be gone, I just want to never suffer again with this cruel, torturous and dreadful existence finally all forgotten and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence, it's all so dreadful to me and I wish I never suffered more than anything, in this existence so cruel only non-existence can bring me peace and the peace of non-existence is just all I see as desirable, all I wish for is to never exist ever again and I just suffer so much as a result of this existence I never would had chosen that only ever caused me to suffer and I'll always see existing as only suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Existence just causes harm and suffering.
It truly does just cause harm and suffering with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and as long as I exist I'll only wish for peace from this dreadful, torturous existence I always saw as a mistake.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me in non-existence with this harmful, dreadful existence finally no longer my problem and as long as I exist I'll just wish to never suffer again, I wish for no more suffering and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous, futile existence, for me non-existence is just the only peace and I suffer so much as result of this harmful, torturous and dreadful existence I just never would had chosen that only caused me to suffer and I'll just always see existence as a mistake no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always seeing existing as just waiting for death.
No matter what I really will always see existing as just being waiting for death, it's just pain, suffering and cruelty all for the sake of it with no limit as to how much one can be tortured and I just suffer so much as a result of being burdened with this torturous existence, it's suffering only non-existence could ever take away for me, I just wish for no more pain and no more suffering.

 

[FuneralCry]

Always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence.
I truly do always suffer as a result of being burdened with this existence that just causes suffering all for the sake of it and problems there were never a need for and I just wish I never existed more than anything.

I'll always see existence as the most terrible tragic mistake and it's one that causes endless amounts of harm, suffering and cruelty, I wish I never existed more than anything and I'll always see it as the most terrible tragedy how this existence was imposed causing all this suffering as a result and there's just so much suffering in existing, it's all so terrible and I wish I never existed more than anything, for me non-existence is just the only peace in this existence so torturous and I'll just always find it so torturous and dreadful to suffer in this existence no matter what.

 

[FuneralCry]

Only non-existence could ever be positive for me.
It truly is all I see as positive and desirable in this dreadful, torturous existence and I'd just always prefer to not exist no matter what than be burdened with this existence I always saw as the most terrible mistake and I suffer simply from existing, all I want is peace.

I just hope and wish to never suffer again, only non-existence is positive for me and only non-existence can solve and take away what I see as the true problem which is existence itself, I just always suffer from how I cannot just have the option to peacefully cease existing that is guaranteed as all I wish for is no more pain and no more suffering, I'd just always prefer to not exist than be burdened with this existence just hoping and waiting for the peace of an eternal dreamless sleep where all is finally gone and forgotten.

 

[FuneralCry]

Wish to erase this existence.
I truly do always wish to erase this existence, I want it to be like I never suffered in this cruel, torturous and futile existence at all.

I just want all to be gone and forgotten for me with no more cruelty and no more suffering and I'll always see this dreadful, futile existence as only suffering, it's suffering only non-existence could ever bring me peace from and it feels like I've suffered for so long, all I want is to never wake ever again. I just wish for peace, all I want is to disappear, I just wish for this existence to be all erased but of course more than anything I wish I was never burdened with this existence, I just never should had suffered at all.