Chronic pain is ruining my life

[bl33ding_heart]

Chronic pain has been ruining my life this past month. I had a weird incident where my back was hurting so bad and clenching itself to the point I could barely move, and had to get taken to a hospital. At the hospital they didn't even run any sort of tests and just sent me home with painkillers. I've been in pain everyday since then and it's making my life so difficult. This is seriously a pain in the ass to deal with on top of my bpd and depression. I don't know why god has to curse me with another burden on top of my debilitating already existing problems. But I seriously wish this issue could just disappear. I try to be productive and study and get things done but the pain is so bad I physically can't, and I just end up wasting my time. My exams are in a month and I am already quite behind. This is just setting me back even more and I don't know if I have faith in myself to do well in my exams anymore. I can't get them postponed, and my whole future is dependant on them. If I score poorly I'm seriously better off just killing myself.

 

[Matchaaa]

I hope your chronic pain gets better soon. I'm sorry you're going through this. I know chronic pain and mental health issues can make life feel unbearable sometimes.
You don't deserve any of this. I really hope things get better for you.

 

[wine is fine but]

is it muscular?
if it was clenching or spasming, it most probably is

if it is muscular, the hospital probably could not have done anything anyway
if you can go and see a physiotherapist, but also try some very gentle walking - a hot shower directly onto it can also help

one of the best things for a sore back (if it is lower back) is walking. you can start feeling some results very quickly

 

[certified_idiot]

How long has this been happening? If it's just been this past month, there's a chance it could go away. Like someone else in this thread said, it sounds like a muscular problem, which would be something to see a physiotherapist about. As someone who's had treatment-resistant chronic pain for years, you want to get help as soon as possible. Don't give up when there could still be a solution. Be loud, be annoying, be impossible to ignore, fight for the help you need. The medical system is shit (at least where I live), but don't let that discourage you from getting help. Fight them until the bitter end.

 

[Raindancer]

I am sorry you are suffering. Could you try massage. I personally have had some good results with massage. Just make sure you go to someone who really knows what they are doing. Chronic pain that doesn't go away completely drains you and unless someone has been through it, they just do not understand. I hope you can find the reason behind it and get some relief.