Help How to get rid of the pain?

[m3nhera]

Not about attempting I just mean in general this is so unbearable
:(

I've thought about seeing a doctor but there's nothing they can do and I've already tried, I'll be in pain forever it never ends

I fantasize a lot about going to the hospital but this stuff in reality isn't nearly as comforting or nice as it is in my head and I'd hate it if it actually happened

If it keeps being this bad it could get in the way of my job and ruin everything for me. I can't manage this. Also on the topic, this is also part of why I'm paranoid I'll start hearing things again since I struggle with that from time to time and it gets really bad, what if it gets me fired? I can't control any of it I don't know what to do.

Someone help me please :( I know there's not much you guys can do but this is the only place I feel understood and comfortable asking for help

 

[uuser1412]

Not about attempting I just mean in general this is so unbearable
:(

I've thought about seeing a doctor but there's nothing they can do and I've already tried, I'll be in pain forever it never ends

I fantasize a lot about going to the hospital but this stuff in reality isn't nearly as comforting or nice as it is in my head and I'd hate it if it actually happened

If it keeps being this bad it could get in the way of my job and ruin everything for me. I can't manage this. Also on the topic, this is also part of why I'm paranoid I'll start hearing things again since I struggle with that from time to time and it gets really bad, what if it gets me fired? I can't control any of it I don't know what to do.

Someone help me please :( I know there's not much you guys can do but this is the only place I feel understood and comfortable asking for help

i'm sorry you are feeling this way. a virtual hug perhaps? i dont know. there are really no words i can say to make the pain go away, just know that i have no idea who you are but i am feeling for you. pain pain go away.

 

[m3nhera]

i'm sorry you are feeling this way. a virtual hug perhaps? i dont know. there are really no words i can say to make the pain go away, just know that i have no idea who you are but i am feeling for you. pain pain go away.

Aw thank you this means a lot to me . Pain pain go away come again another day(actually don't LMAO). I wish there was a cure for everyone's pain here, something besides death that could make it go away. I wish suicide wasn't the only way for me since I can't really ctb anytime soon due to circumstances.

 

[Yuri440]

Pain pain go away come again another day(actually don't LMAO)

LMAO just get it to come back when you're like 150 years old so hopefully ya know not still alive ezpz lemon sqeezayyylmao

What kind of pain we talking? I'm assuming emotional pain but I just wanna make sure lmao

 

[m3nhera]

LMAO just get it to come back when you're like 150 years old so hopefully ya know not still alive ezpz lemon sqeezayyylmao

What kind of pain we talking? I'm assuming emotional pain but I just wanna make sure lmao

Idk if I'd just call it emotional, something is seriously wrong this time like my brain is really sick.

Not about attempting I just mean in general this is so unbearable
:(

I've thought about seeing a doctor but there's nothing they can do and I've already tried, I'll be in pain forever it never ends

I fantasize a lot about going to the hospital but this stuff in reality isn't nearly as comforting or nice as it is in my head and I'd hate it if it actually happened

If it keeps being this bad it could get in the way of my job and ruin everything for me. I can't manage this. Also on the topic, this is also part of why I'm paranoid I'll start hearing things again since I struggle with that from time to time and it gets really bad, what if it gets me fired? I can't control any of it I don't know what to do.

Someone help me please :( I know there's not much you guys can do but this is the only place I feel understood and comfortable asking for help

Wait guys does anyone have any recommendations??? There has to be some way to get rid of it, ctb methods are also welcome

 

[Yuri440]

Well I mean suicide would sure get rid of the pain, since you'll be dead haha that one's a given, but I suppose it depends on the pain.

For me personally like I know a lot of it likes to come in heavy waves and I usually ride it out until it's not as strong and I can distract from it. I'm quite fortunate that mine does like to come in waves though, I feel. What's the pain? Like how would you describe what it feels like and what you think causes it? Even if it's lots of lil things <3

 

[m3nhera]

Well I mean suicide would sure get rid of the pain, since you'll be dead haha that one's a given, but I suppose it depends on the pain.

For me personally like I know a lot of it likes to come in heavy waves and I usually ride it out until it's not as strong and I can distract from it. I'm quite fortunate that mine does like to come in waves though, I feel. What's the pain? Like how would you describe what it feels like and what you think causes it? Even if it's lots of lil things <3

How come everyone here is so caring but general society is so cruel to us?

I have been wanting to talk about it actually so I'm glad you cared enough to ask. It's hard to explain. Maybe I'll come back later and explain, everything hurts too much.

But anyways, I've never been more sure about suicide. This isn't an impulsive feeling, I am really sure this is what I want long term and once I'm home from this shitty trip(don't get me started on why it's so bad and NOT a vacation), I'm going to start planning.

I need to figure something out, this is unfortunately the only way and I know that now. My choice was solidified by a lot of things, it's not that what has been going on lately made me suicidal, but rather it confirmed preexisting feelings and desires.

I'm really gonna miss my bf. I want to hug him but I can't because of this trip. I need someone to help me plan, I'm too mentally exhausted guys please I can't do this anymore.

I'm sure now, and I'm almost never sure about anything. This is what I have to do.

 

[Yuri440]

How come everyone here is so caring but general society is so cruel to us?

I think it's less that we're caring and more that we understand, ya know? While I don't understand your situation in detail, myself and others have felt the pain loads too so we know what it's like to live with that pain. We are on sasu after all haha

and once I'm home from this shitty trip(don't get me started on why it's so bad and NOT a vacation)

Think of it like I was saying before! The trip is hellish right now and it's the peak of the wave. You're doing your best to ride it out until you're home where, at least in comparison to the trip, things will be that little bit easier <3

I'm really gonna miss my bf. I want to hug him but I can't because of this trip.

And THIS is something to look forward to once the trip is over. Silver lining to it <3

I'm sure now, and I'm almost never sure about anything. This is what I have to do.

I've followed a good number of your posts, I don't even know why tbf I always find I can actually reply to these ones more out of the majority haha. You have a lot of ups and downs, and I get it honestly. For now, do what you can to work through the trip until you're home and can get that hug you're so excited for <3 From there we can look at it again, ya know?

As always nerd, my DMs are open to you if you want to. If it's easier to talk about your pain and such in private, you're welcome to pester me. It doesn't bother me in the slightest <3

 

[m3nhera]

I think it's less that we're caring and more that we understand, ya know? While I don't understand your situation in detail, myself and others have felt the pain loads too so we know what it's like to live with that pain. We are on sasu after all haha


Think of it like I was saying before! The trip is hellish right now and it's the peak of the wave. You're doing your best to ride it out until you're home where, at least in comparison to the trip, things will be that little bit easier <3


And THIS is something to look forward to once the trip is over. Silver lining to it <3


I've followed a good number of your posts, I don't even know why tbf I always find I can actually reply to these ones more out of the majority haha. You have a lot of ups and downs, and I get it honestly. For now, do what you can to work through the trip until you're home and can get that hug you're so excited for <3 From there we can look at it again, ya know?

As always nerd, my DMs are open to you if you want to. If it's easier to talk about your pain and such in private, you're welcome to pester me. It doesn't bother me in the slightest <3

Hey sorry I had to go eat lunch(like we were called, it's complicated to explain why this trip is so strict but it's not anyone else's fault besides parents and such) and I share this room with four other people but enough of my whining. Things won't be better once I'm home, the trip is bad in a different way and there's certain things I can't do until I'm home. I'm also an idiot who never figured out how quoting works on this site so bear with me haha.

What I was trying to say was that this isn't about the trip and this is what I truly want, not a bad episode or event or anything. This is what I really have to do. This is the only way.

And with strict parents when you can't drive and still live with them "my house my rules blah blah" it's not like I can get a hug right away from my bf when I'm home. They are in charge of whether we can hangout, even if he takes the bus here and back and they do zero work.

And thanks for lettig me pester you, I feel like people always tell mentally ill people that they're there for them, but get annoyed when it's taken literally. Like just don't say it then, but I believe you and maybe I'll bother you someday. If it gets annoying just tell me to stop. Also knowing someone follows my posts makes me feel like I'm not just talking to the void and like someone actually cares about my life updates and such. There's some logistics to my plan that are stressing me out I need advice later on.

 

[Yuri440]

Time to show off these quoting skills you're so jealous of lmao. Legit tho I just highlight a part of your message and press the quote button that pops up, and on the reply box there'll be an insert quotes box and it puts them into your message, then you just add messages under each of 'em like I do. You don't have to do all that though, I just like to break stuff down so it's easier for me to reply, my brain is shit with big replies haha

but enough of my whining.

Nu uh, do it as much as you want. If people don't like it, they can just not reply hahaha

What I was trying to say was that this isn't about the trip and this is what I truly want, not a bad episode or event or anything.

I feel you. Lots of shit eating at you for sure. It can be brutal when you feel so trapped that suicide is the only freedom you can get tbh, I definitely feel like that a lot of the time. I just sound like I have a grip on mine because of how I talk haha, in reality I am very much in the same boat with wanting to be dead, friend <3

And thanks for lettig me pester you, I feel like people always tell mentally ill people that they're there for them, but get annoyed when it's taken literally.

You don't have to thank me for it, especially since you haven't actually pestered me haha. To me it's just I lose nothing, and it costs me nothing, for people to message me. I can't say I'll have a great response or I'll be able to outright help you with your issues, but at the very least I can be here and you can just talk as much as you want haha, it genuinely doesn't bother me

There's some logistics to my plan that are stressing me out I need advice later on.

We canny give advice on stuff like that, you know the rules friend <3 When you can, gander through the megathreads and have a look to see what works. Not sure on your method of choice, mine's partial atm though I'm thinking of changing it up to carbon monoxide eventually if partial keeps failing, but I can tell you that everything you need is in things like the megathreads, the PPH, and the search function. Takes time, but you can get a lot of info from it. I'm here to listen to you talk as much as you want about it, I just can't help you with the suicide <3