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kapa

kapa

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Dec 19, 2024
38
Wrote my goodbye note, found the source for SN. I'm afraid to purchase though. It's like roller coaster, one minute ctb is the only thing in my mind, the other I want to give life one more chance. But i feel so lonely.... I can't decide what to do.
 
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Romanticize

Romanticize

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Aug 22, 2024
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Purchase it, i did and its sitting well there. If a year or more will pass, I will try to get a new one. Or maybe it will be impossible to get, this way I will always have SN (old but still).

If youre living with someone who can undermine your attempt if they find SN in your posession, this advice is not valid.
 
kapa

kapa

Member
Dec 19, 2024
38
Purchase it, i did and its sitting well there. If a year or more will pass, I will try to get a new one. Or maybe it will be impossible to get, this way I will always have SN (old but still).

If youre living with someone who can undermine your attempt if they find SN in your posession, this advice is not valid.
I end up living alone. I'm saving money for now to buy it although I'm scared for the delivery. But as you said I think it's better to have it around.
 
Goth

Goth

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Aug 26, 2024
156
if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed
 
Romanticize

Romanticize

Specialist
Aug 22, 2024
336
if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed
buying this doesnt put you on any watchlist or someting.
I bought it so easily, 1 kilogram for fkin $5. Im not committed for now, but after my mom dies I will be. The more tools available, the better.
 
kapa

kapa

Member
Dec 19, 2024
38
if you can't decide id just wait to buy anything for suicide until uve fully committed
Most of my life it's all a could think about. It's just hard knowing I'm hurting the people behind. But at the same time I don't care it's weird
buying this doesnt put you on any watchlist or someting.
I bought it so easily, 1 kilogram for fkin $5. Im not committed for now, but after my mom dies I will be. The more tools available, the better.
Wow that's a deal I only found the DMC and it's way to expensive
 

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