How do you plan to write your final note, if you decide to leave one?

[slowlybreaking]

Just out of curiosity, I wonder if you guys plan in advance, wrote something in the moment or just didn't write anything at all (if we're talking about failed attempts that is)?

My late boyfriend wrote his the night he decided to ctb, apparently my name was all over the note but his family wouldn't let me see the full writing -and I respect that; knowing I made him the happiest during his darkest days is enough- just the paragraph that was specifically addressed to me. I've started writing mine almost a week after his passing when I made up my mind; I realized I'm losing my mind bit by bit after the fact and given his best friend took a hard hit after not being mentioned at all, I wouldn't want to leave anyone out by the time I decide it's my turn to go and it's too late to write something coherent.

edit: modified the title like 5 times because my english ain't english-ing

 

[hughmun9]

For my previous more impulsive attempts I didn't write anything at all. I did write a note in advance for my next attempt with an exit bag:
"
I was not assisted in any way. [Signature]

It is no one's fault. If anyone feels guilty for not contacting me lately, please don't. I did not want to speak to anyone in the past few months. If you would've called I would not have answered, and I might've sent a text saying: "sorry, I don't really want to talk right now". There's nothing anyone could've said or done to change my mind.

Do what you will with the body. No butt stuff though.
"

 

[Enyan]

I've pre-written notes on my phone, then transferred what I wanted to say onto paper (since I think handwritten goodbye letters are more personal).

I'm actually leaving more than just a note for my boyfriend though; it's kinda like a booklet. It starts with the "note" and then has some printed out photos, old tickets, etc. as some kind of "here's some wonderful memories we had together". I hope it helps him, even if only a little bit. But holy shit it hurts working on it, if grief could kill I'd have died already

 

[mob]

I find I can express myself best through poetry, so if I do decide to write a note, it'd be a poem.

And I'm sorry to hear about your late boyfriend's passing

 

[xXiloveyouXx]

I'm leaving a note for my sister and then a second addressed to "everyone else" saying what I want to be done with my body and other practical instrcutions. The fact that nobody else means enough for me to leave them personal notes should be a statement in itself, and I also plan on having a couple scheduled goodbye messages to friends that will be sent long after I'll be dead.

Other than that, I'm considering leaving a third manifesto kind of note where I explain what exactly my beef is with anything existing in the first place but that will probably be interpreted as schizo nonsense.

 

[100memoryleaks]

i have a pre-written note saved to my phone for my boyfriend. for my family, i'll leave a handwritten note. i will write it the day of. i'm gonna write this:

i'm sorry for the pain i'm putting you all through, but i have decided to find peace on the other side. there is nothing you could have done to prevent this. thank you for giving me a wonderful life and happy memories.

i'm not sure if i should say the exact reason, i don't want them to resent my bf or think he was abusive or something like that.

 

[meowpuppy]

i want my note to be full of love, because i have so much love in my heart that nobody really wants. i don't want to waste my love on people who won't reciprocate it, but i obviously will have nothing else to give once i'm dead.

i'll tell mom and dad first, obviously, about how they don't love me, even if they think they do, and how they only hurt me, and maybe, if i feel lonely enough, i'll tell my exes, though i haven't talked to them in years. they were super nice though, so i think maybe they have an obligation to know. they'll long since have forgotten me, though, so i'm unsure about that. i'll tell them about how sweet they were to me and how they prevented in total maybe dozens of impulsive attempts. i'll probably post my note here as well, because i don't see a downside

 

[rottingratlab]

Probably a sort of long philosophical essay, followed with a short note about how i'm gonna try to find my cats if there's anything after death (although I hope there's not)

 

[SweetChariot]

I have one written over my depressive period yes, what i want to convey or explain at the last moment always changes

 

[PerfectVictory]

For my previous more impulsive attempts I didn't write anything at all. I did write a note in advance for my next attempt with an exit bag:
"
I was not assisted in any way. [Signature]

It is no one's fault. If anyone feels guilty for not contacting me lately, please don't. I did not want to speak to anyone in the past few months. If you would've called I would not have answered, and I might've sent a text saying: "sorry, I don't really want to talk right now". There's nothing anyone could've said or done to change my mind.

Do what you will with the body. No butt stuff though.
"

Last sentence made me laugh. I didn't expect that.