DecayingGirl
Member
- Apr 2, 2023
- 7
Hey just an update, I've decided on partial hanging but i just need to figure out where.
In my last post i did state i didn't have a date because i had a lot to do but i have managed to get a lot of stuff out of the way.
I wrote all the notes needed and have written some plans for after i'm gone, mostly to do with the funeral.
Only thing that keeps crossing my mind is how i don't want to go all alone, is it weird i want to ctb with someone? is that a normal feeling? im not sure.
Either way i still need to figure out a good place, i'd rather do it outside as i live at home with family and i really dont want there to be any chance of them finding me early or just finding me at all, as much as they've hurt me throughout my life i still don't think i can do that to them, especially my younger brother...he's the only good thing in this house and deserves so much better.
So i'm thinking a nice forest or even field with trees nearby, that obviously means it might be difficult to find something i can partially hang off but if i do have to change the plan into full hanging then i can do that i'd just rather not.
There's still some things i need to do like see some old friends one last time and i also want to give some stuff away just for things to remember me by and i guess just to show the right people i did love them and will always love them. So yeah that is where i'm at right now, still haven't decided on a date but i'd rather not be here for much longer so hopefully everything will be sorted in the next couple of months depending on how plans go and things turn out, thanks for reading :)
In my last post i did state i didn't have a date because i had a lot to do but i have managed to get a lot of stuff out of the way.
I wrote all the notes needed and have written some plans for after i'm gone, mostly to do with the funeral.
Only thing that keeps crossing my mind is how i don't want to go all alone, is it weird i want to ctb with someone? is that a normal feeling? im not sure.
Either way i still need to figure out a good place, i'd rather do it outside as i live at home with family and i really dont want there to be any chance of them finding me early or just finding me at all, as much as they've hurt me throughout my life i still don't think i can do that to them, especially my younger brother...he's the only good thing in this house and deserves so much better.
So i'm thinking a nice forest or even field with trees nearby, that obviously means it might be difficult to find something i can partially hang off but if i do have to change the plan into full hanging then i can do that i'd just rather not.
There's still some things i need to do like see some old friends one last time and i also want to give some stuff away just for things to remember me by and i guess just to show the right people i did love them and will always love them. So yeah that is where i'm at right now, still haven't decided on a date but i'd rather not be here for much longer so hopefully everything will be sorted in the next couple of months depending on how plans go and things turn out, thanks for reading :)
