space*rabbit
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- Jun 29, 2026
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After lurking for about a year I finally decided to make an account and post. For a little background information, I've been to several therapists, tried multiple medications, and most recently tried tms treatment to stabilize my mental health. Next week is the last of my tms sessions and it has done literally nothing to fix me. That was my very last option. I've basically tried everything. I am beyond saving.
The only good thing that mental health profesionals have done for me was finally give me a long overdue autism diagnosis. This explains why I can't do anything right and why I can't make friends no matter how hard I try. I literally only have one friend, and I consider this friendship to have a time limit on it since I can't keep friends for longer than a year. Once she leaves, I'll be isolated again.
I have a set date for December 16, 2030, my birthday. I'm only waiting it out because I'm honestly curious to see how much worse it gets. And the less serious reason being that December 16, 2003 - December 16, 2030 would look sick on a tombstone lol.
There's not much of a point to this post. I just wanted to explain myself to people who will actually understand. Thanks for reading.
The only good thing that mental health profesionals have done for me was finally give me a long overdue autism diagnosis. This explains why I can't do anything right and why I can't make friends no matter how hard I try. I literally only have one friend, and I consider this friendship to have a time limit on it since I can't keep friends for longer than a year. Once she leaves, I'll be isolated again.
I have a set date for December 16, 2030, my birthday. I'm only waiting it out because I'm honestly curious to see how much worse it gets. And the less serious reason being that December 16, 2003 - December 16, 2030 would look sick on a tombstone lol.
There's not much of a point to this post. I just wanted to explain myself to people who will actually understand. Thanks for reading.
