Discussion Would you rather kill your self now or suffer for the remainder of your life?

[stepanch1k]

I don't really believe that ctb is worth it, Sometimes when you're in a really dark place mentally it can feel like the only option, but then you just force yourself into sleep and wake up on the next day like nothing happened. I feel like I'd rather just give up on life and play video games for the rest of my life than just end it all, also I still have some people to take revenge on. Of course my life situation is relatively easy compared to others, so I'd like to hear your thoughts on it.

 

[Bishop]

There's no right or wrong. Most people here are pro choice. So that whatever choice one decides is up to them. I too have a revenge aspect, as I want to be alive to see my father that I detest die first. I won't give him the pleasure of out lasting me. Muahahaha.

 

[supremacyofdeath]

i think dying by your own hand is a very courageous and respectable thing to do. living until you eventually just pass naturally is very cowardly.
that being said i am indeed, a coward.

 

[stepanch1k]

i think dying by your own hand is a very courageous and respectable thing to do. living until you eventually just pass naturally is very cowardly.
that being said i am indeed, a coward.

Same), but I think roping without taking revenge on those who hurt you is pussy behavior

 

[Bruce]

Only I am in a dark place always. Sleeping on it does not work. : (

 

[Forveleth]

Sometimes when you're in a really dark place mentally it can feel like the only option, but then you just force yourself into sleep and wake up on the next day like nothing happened.

This does not work for everyone. Some people wake up just as depressed as when they went to sleep. Some people wake up feeling worse.

I feel like I'd rather just give up on life and play video games for the rest of my life than just end it all

Sitting around playing video games is not a satisfying existence for everyone. Video games also do not always overcome the negativity in people's lives.

also I still have some people to take revenge on.

On a personal note, my death is my revenge.

Some people simply do not want to continue existing or are in a far worse situation that causes them daily strife. People kill themselves because they are pushed far pat their breaking point and some genuinely have no out.

 

[d-tea]

I'd rather suffer for the rest of my life than hurt those around me by messing up in any way and not acting "healthy". That being said, while I am still not happy, I feel so much better now than I did for the majority of my life so I can't actually speak for when things get unbearable, again. I hope they won't. If they start getting really bad, I will try to get help.
I should be getting help right now but oh well.

 

[violetforever]

now, im so worn out on life

 

[Ima-username]

i cant keep living like this. i just cant

 

[Bruce]

Sitting around playing video games is not a satisfying existence for everyone.

I mean I would. But it's not as simple as that. One needs money to survive, you have to get out, to work.

 

[SMG08ABUSER]

If I could, I'd end it right now with absolutely 0 hesitation whatsoever. I really wish I could. But I would put my family in a LOT of crippling debt if I did so, so I at least want to end things cleanly with no financial burdens caused by me. Just 2 more years left until the car note under my dad's name and credit is fully paid off.

All of my investments and any last dollar to my name would go to my brother as my sole beneficiary. I would give him a headstart on retirement, and he could use the money to help build his future family. I just hope he'll eventually understand and come to terms with things when I do finally leave.

It hurts to know I will be leaving some loved ones behind. It is a very bittersweet feeling. The pain of existence is just too much for me to bear unfortunately. I just wish I didn't exist as me.

 

[LittleJem]

die right now please

 

[Kokonoe]

i would much rather die right now than suffer forever. why suffer pointlessly. i wish i was just dead.

 

[franos666]

I don't know. I wouldn't like to kill myself now because my mum would be very sad :(

 

[gardenhouse]

I would much rather die right now than suffer forever, i wish i was just dead. I have this loud ringing in my head that cannot be silenced by any treatment, surgery or drug. I would wanna end this suffering peacefully through VAD in swiss but if no one supports me, spouse or family, if they prefer to see me suffer but alive, then i really question their love for me. i'd just take commit ctb Heath Ledger way.

I have a dog, if i saw my dog suffered unbearably, i would put her to sleep even if it hurt me.

 

[Bad Mojo]

I feel like my finger's always on the trigger for when things fall apart or when my family passes. Until then living is a better decision for me. Like I'm in a state of tense suspension and I'm waiting for the right time to pop.

 

[Lost Magic]

I would try to get out of that revenge mentality, if you can. Life will deal with the ones that hurt you. But to your question, I will only suffer for so long and then I will call it quits. I like to have the choice to say when it's my time. It's not for other people to decide for me.

 

[TAW122]

I would rather just die on my own terms, because when I think about it, once I am dead, I cannot suffer anymore and whatever happens to the people who have wronged me would be irrelevant. Vengeance and all the other feelings, emotions, ambitions, goals, and many other good and bad things that come with life itself ONLY matter as long as one is sentient and to be able to experience it, but once one is deprived of sentience (dead and/or no longer existing), then the deprivation or even the lack of perception of deprivation as well as lack of (potential) pleasure no longer matters as non-sentience (death itself) is simply the same as non-existence. For reference, I don't believe in a religion/afterlife/beforelife. As far as I know, it would be the same as before I was conceived or born.

I believe many people whom are afraid of death is because of one's self-preservation instincts (Survival Instinct) which is a biological mechanism that exists in all living organisms and that may be difficult for them to perceive the lack of sentience (more than just going to sleep and never waking up - it's difficult to conceptualize for most people), but I digress..

 

[Bitter Almonds]

The eternal question. if i had the button to press right now, I would.

 

[itsgone2]

I'd love to go right now. Has been this way for months.
I deserve it. I hurt people for longer than this.

I went to the gun range today. Can still smell the gunpowder. Was shaking by the end.
It's $easy to shoot. Recoil is very manageable. Still f**king here!!

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

I feel like life is so exhausting constantly battling my OCD and things i can't really deal with. I was so afraid to take SN before but now i'm just waiting for that day to come.

 

[nayomi]

i think it is a very personal question. but i do think most of the times it is worth living.
i am thinking that the more we deal with suicide the more we are closer to the source of our suffering