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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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No they are not around dad just came and then left so I'm alone now
Oh I see, do you plan to do any sort of hyperventilation or breathing before? I saw something about a wim hof breathing method that makes it easier to not try and breathe when hanging but idk
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Oh I see, do you plan to do any sort of hyperventilation or breathing before? I saw something about a wim hof breathing method that makes it easier to not try and breathe when hanging but idk
I don't know I feel like I will loose consciousness pretty quick and will not want to breathe. I once hyperventilated when i cried recently and i felt like fainting so that can help.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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I don't know I feel like I will loose consciousness pretty quick and will not want to breathe. I once hyperventilated when i cried recently and i felt like fainting so that can help.
I wish I had that confidence about losing consciousness quickly, I'm worried I won't lose it at all or very slowly, it makes me so jealous knowing people younger than me are braver than me so it's easier for them
 
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Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
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I wish I had that confidence about losing consciousness quickly, I'm worried I won't lose it at all or very slowly, it makes me so jealous knowing people younger than me are braver than me so it's easier for them
I tried pulling with rod and at first there was some discomfort but then after enough force my head started feeling light i felt tired and vision got dark. Kinda weird to be jealous of people that wanna die, isn't it? I will try to do the thing with slowly going down while the rope is tied to the anchor.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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I tried pulling with rod and at first there was some discomfort but then after enough force my head started feeling light i felt tired and vision got dark. Kinda weird to be jealous of people that wanna die, isn't it? I will try to do the thing with slowly going down while the rope is tied to the anchor.
Do you just put the rope high above the Adam's apple and knot at back of neck? I always feel pain before I feel light, not once have I gotten vision going dark. If I was fast enough and skilled enough I would get up and when feeling light jump into the noose hoping the pre light headedness would help but that's not possible. I mean I want to die too and have for years. Being jealous of people who aren't scared of pain and seem to have less si than me so they do it with ease while I fight myself to step off the chair seems normal in this situation. Like the girl mentioned in this thread in the beginning, I feel terrible for her situation but she stepped off the stool seemingly easy and was out fairly quickly
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Do you just put the rope high above the Adam's apple and knot at back of neck? I always feel pain before I feel light, not once have I gotten vision going dark. If I was fast enough and skilled enough I would get up and when feeling light jump into the noose hoping the pre light headedness would help but that's not possible. I mean I want to die too and have for years. Being jealous of people who aren't scared of pain and seem to have less si than me so they do it with ease while I fight myself to step off the chair seems normal in this situation. Like the girl mentioned in this thread in the beginning, I feel terrible for her situation but she stepped off the stool seemingly easy and was out fairly quickly
Yeah I just put it above Adam's apple the knot at back of neck and then pull and that just happens.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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Yeah I just put it above Adam's apple the knot at back of neck and then pull and that just happens.
How high up the neck? Right below the jaw? A bit of space? Sorry If it's annoying I just want to get the same result
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

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Apr 6, 2026
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How high up the neck? Right below the jaw? A bit of space? Sorry If it's annoying I just want to get the same result
It was as high up the neck as possible. I tried again and actually I could even breath while my vision started going dark felt like i gonna faint and hands started tingling
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
84
It was as high up the neck as possible. I tried again and actually I could even breath while my vision started going dark felt like i gonna faint and hands started tingling
Does the rope go directly around your neck like straight across or go up from the front to the back? I'm trying to figure out how you're able to feel faint so easily
 
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Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Does the rope go directly around your neck like straight across or go up from the front to the back? I'm trying to figure out how you're able to feel faint so easily
Yeah I looked down and tightened the knot around my neck as much as i could, while holding it with my right hand as high as possible on the neck.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
84
Yeah I looked down and tightened the knot around my neck as much as i could, while holding it with my right hand as high as possible on the neck.
Sorry if you already answered are you using a 10 mm or 12 mm rope? I plan to try again soon
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
84
I wrote everything about my setup in the post, it's 12mm nylon rope
Is there a reason you picked 12mm? I'm thinking that might be why I'm struggling, if it is I might need to change my rope. I thought if the rope is thicker it may take longer to pass out but I guess it may be the other way
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Is there a reason you picked 12mm? I'm thinking that might be why I'm struggling, if it is I might need to change my rope. I thought if the rope is thicker it may take longer to pass out but I guess it may be the other way
I picked it because it was recommended by some guide, don't really have any other rope and didn't try anything other than this one. It was also hard to buy it and I was anxious of what they could ask about purpose of the rope I created a long story on why I need it but thankfully they didn't even ask me anything just cut the 10m of that rope I gave the money placed it inside my bag and went home.
You said that you have a 12mm rope already?
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
84
I picked it because it was recommended by some guide, don't really have any other rope and didn't try anything other than this one. It was also hard to buy it and I was anxious of what they could ask about purpose of the rope I created a long story on why I need it but thankfully they didn't even ask me anything just cut the 10m of that rope I gave the money placed it inside my bag and went home
Oh I see, I just ordered one of each delivered to my door, going to test with each one more time and then pick which I'll use, maybe the 12 would actually make me feel light headed compared to the 10
 
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Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Oh I see, I just ordered one of each delivered to my door, going to test with each one more time and then pick which I'll use, maybe the 12 would actually make me feel light headed compared to the 10
I would wish to order to my door but my parents apartment is right on the same floor of the building so I had to go there by myself put it inside bag and return home. Also came up with something to say if I meet them like I was walking with bag to store my headphones in it.
 
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sickofeverything

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Apr 17, 2026
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Huh, i can't picture your living situation but it sounds like you live separate so I would assume it wouldn't be hard to hide? I just tried again pulling hard with the 10 and 12 and the 12 made my lips tingle and my hearing get a bit in an out so I am having to redo my whole setup to the 12 hoping that that result means I'll pass out. Maybe also the numbing crème helped me not cough or the thickness Idk. Didn't try it with the pillowcase due to the numbing cream still being on with saran wrap, but I'm hoping when I add the pillowcase, it won't change much. Due to my failed attempts if I fail again, I really would rather not have to deal with the rope burn
 
Lextyle

Lextyle

Student
Apr 6, 2026
113
Huh, i can't picture your living situation but it sounds like you live separate so I would assume it wouldn't be hard to hide? I just tried again pulling hard with the 10 and 12 and the 12 made my lips tingle and my hearing get a bit in an out so I am having to redo my whole setup to the 12 hoping that that result means I'll pass out. Maybe also the numbing crème helped me not cough or the thickness Idk. Didn't try it with the pillowcase due to the numbing cream still being on with saran wrap, but I'm hoping when I add the pillowcase, it won't change much. Due to my failed attempts if I fail again, I really would rather not have to deal with the rope burn
Yes I live separate but on the same floor of the same building, the only problem was getting home with the rope when I was already inside I just placed it inside a storage cabinet and they don't know about it for a long time. Oh the 12mm rope is kinda giving hope that it will work.
 

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