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I dont know if it's a pull up bar maybe holding on it is better than leaning forward on the beam? That way I will hang fully on the moment of loosing consciousness. But still thinking if convulsions will make any problems considering the design of the pull up bar. Like hitting and taking support of the beam or the things in the middle for hands.
Idk, I watched the video from the streamer discussed in the beginning of this thread, she did convulse and her arms moved but it didn't seem like they could actually grab anything? So I wouldn't think you could grab the sides, more like your arms hit them but not be able to grab and lift?
Yeah probably, what about the beam? the level my feet will hang on is only a big lower than the beam and during convulsions I can hit it and take support or something?
Same thing from what I saw in video I would assume your feet if they hang below would just flail and hit it potentially like kicking it but nothing of standing unless you're conscious and it's si. I can't kick my chair away once I do it so if I convulse my legs would be hitting the chair and the edge of my bed. Thank god you only convulse after you're unconscious as it would hurt and bruise like a bitch if it happens
yeah i also thought about that, hitting with my feet the metalic beam hurts so much. You didn't say what do you think about making handles hang on the ventilation vent from both sides so that you hold on them and slowly go down like with pull up bar?
I am not that strong, due to the funk I've fallen into I have not worked out in several months and barely eat, which hopefully me not eating today and it being 4 will help pass out faster, but I do not have the strength in my arms to do that at all, me holding the rope is more I think of a mental comfort that I am "in control" and "safe" and "practicing" when I'm not. Idk, the only way I got both feet off the chair was holding the rope but it wasn't for me to actually lower myself more to get off the chair if you get what I mean
I plan to attempt soon, hope everything goes smoothly for both of us
part of me really thinks we over think it, I know it's to avoid being worse off but so many young teenagers and famous people seem to off themselves out of nowhere where they probably don't research and just go for it and succeed
Ok then, hope it all goes well, painless and peacefulI plan to attempt soon, hope everything goes smoothly for both of us
Well I sit right now in front of the pull up bar and all my setup is on it with the buntline knot and the noose with double overhand. I tested different things on it so I don't know, if the convulsions will not make any problem I might try It's 3:30 AM now for me
Ah I see. Well if you go good luck, I hope I will not be back here responding as hopefully I succeed painlessly and quickly. If you go today then I hope the same for you. Thank you for all the response
Just tried and am only getting the blood pooling feeling again, not the ear ringing or passing out, I just want to be done why is it so difficult
Oh that's unfortunate. Do you think you did anything different from attempts before?Ah I see. Well if you go good luck, I hope I will not be back here responding as hopefully I succeed painlessly and quickly. If you go today then I hope the same for you. Thank you for all the response
Just tried and am only getting the blood pooling feeling again, not the ear ringing or passing out, I just want to be done why is it so difficult
Not that I can think of, I felt light headed yesterday and did the same today besides actually attempting in my hanging state not sitting down. I even tried the partial to full where I got light headed but did not pass out and did not fall forward either. I've seen videos of partials and am so desperate I'm thinking of trying that but if I can't pass out now I don't see how I'd be able to then. So many people do this and succeed why am I struggling god I just want to be done why is this so hard, I felt good about it not hesitant. I even have broken blood vessels wtf. I'm thinking of changing my setup to partial on my knees, I know people recommend for partial to have legs out but idk, I can't even figure out how partial would work for me, it seems to only work via passing out then no fight and lack of blood flow but I can't even get to passing out
If that makes it easier for you I also tried just now many times and my vision wasn't going dark and only tingling my neck already hurts when i try to swallow. I don't know I just need to endure whatever pain there is freak our drop the hands from pull up bar voluntarily and see what happens. I don't know I want to sleep maybe I will try tomorrow.
Yeah I can't figure it out either, even with the people that endure the pain the videos show them passing out fairly fast and when I try to endure partial for longer there still isn't passing out idk what to do.
