Discussion What life would you want to live if ctb wasn't an option?

[tomame]

having been a trump, hilton, or rockafeller old money, class, and conservative would have been my dream life

having grown up a prodigy at piano

a right knit family

and having became a judge or doctor

and ultimately a philanthropist

 

[LRkin]

A small family business like a cafe, a coffee shop or a bistro. A loving wife. A kid or two. Something like that.

 

[infinitesimal]

i would be really bummed that i cant take my death into my own hands, but anyway…

realistically:
im assuming i die by means outside my own control, and that im not immortal. and that im given the power to have full control of my life from scratch. i want some things to be not so predictable though, it wouldnt feel like life if everything went according to plan.
• no abuse
• no mental illness and disability
• no fatigue
• have the drive to do things
• tons of money but not to the point its unethical, and use it to fund multiple livelihoods and research
• several side quests and odd jobs, not sticking to one specific career
• dog lives to its full lifespan
• have multiple ethically bred dogs
• live alone and own a condo unit or a small house, not too fancy because i dont want to maintain such a large space
• travel to europe
• a few friends (i dont care if i dont have a romantic partner)

if i could go buck wild:
• have the ability to shapeshift without bounds, but usually assume a formless mass
• live outside the rules of human society
• have wish-granting powers probably, i wanna do good but also because im nosy and want to know peoples desires
• the world can be whatever it wants

with what i have now:
• determined to become a vegetable, or just sleep until something happens
• increase in risky and impulsive behavior
• maybe if i ever find the will to keep going? find a career doing something i like… i gotta find some payoff for my suffering somehow
• find friends hopefully
• find middle ground with my family, i feel like its dangerous for me to cut them off despite how things are going
• be together with my crush
• hopefully get my fatigue sorted
• be very frustrated
• will probably be left out on the streets to rot
(some of these feel like impossibilities, but its the best case scenario for me)

 

[discernment]

I'd live in a cottage in the middle of nowhere, somewhere really beautiful with fresh air, peace and quiet, and no societal pressures like my 9-5. I'd have lots of different animals that I can take care of.

 

[NickyKymJelly]

Realistically, I'd like to be a pediatric nurse. I've always enjoyed and treasured kids, so I would love to help them. Not sure if it would be psychiatric or psychical health though. I didn't like how the psych ward was ran when I visited, so I think I'd probably stick to physical health.
Living by myself with one or two cats would also be part of the dream.

 

[Tomorrow Is Today]

I would want to actually develop my interests and hobbies, maybe make a living out of them instead of just being a temporary thing I get into before it fizzles out. If I could choose I would love to be a filmmaker or an urban photographer. Currently I'm too messed up to even try these anymore.