Discussion What keeps you in ss (sasu)?

[TwistedNightmares]

It's the only place I find safe to express my thoughts. I find the people here to be really kind and understanding.

 

[RimeOfTheAncient]

It's pretty much the last place on the internet where I can be open and say what I really mean without getting banned, mocked, or whiteknighted.

 

[rainatthetraintrack]

i haven't ctbed yet and i haven't recovered either.

 

[Greyhawk]

This is the only place where I can communicate my thoughts and feelings honestly without pretending. I don't need to fear judgement because people here have experienced same kind of stuff and make an effort to listen. I can talk about suicide, death and my fears without people just going "Suicide is bad" or brushing it off.

In other words, this is the only place where I can feel authentic connection to people. I'm also pretty lonely and I like reading posts and spending time here when I'm bored.

 

[Hiro Uchiha]

freedom and comfort
understanding and respect

 

[corpse]

I don't know why I'm still here.

 

[Forever Sleep]

The sense of community here. The opportunity to be honest about how I'm feeling without getting panic, platitudes or annoyance as a response. I'm stuck here alive while I wait for my Dad to go first. Ironically, the forum is actually helping me to hold on.

 

[Pale_Rider]

SaSu validates my suicidal urges. I need to keep this down irl.

 

[endoftheroad45]

I will eventually ctb. Possibly within the next couple of weeks. My mental health is rapidly declining, this is the only place with like minded people

 

[NutOrat]

Truthfully? External validation. I'm addicted to receiving reactions and replies. But also the community, of course, really nice and smart people here, people who actually try to and do understand me. I barely interact with others irl, so this is the most I've communicated with anyone in a long time. I don't expect to make any long term friends here, because I can't maintain friendships period, and well, the nature of this site, but I like pretending I have all these friends, and that makes getting out of bed feel a little less impossible.

i also fucking HAAAATTTEE reddit. i would frequent r/depression and r/lonely in high school and weirdos would dm me because they thought i was a cute and vulnerable girl when i'm a guy. all online perverts should die. r/depression sucks to browse and the post to comment ratio is kind of crazy compared to sasu. at least people make an effort to talk to each other on here. r/suicidewatch is straight garbo to browse and it's literally just teenagers.

Couldn't have said it better myself. Sorry you had those experiences, they're unfortunately too common. Reddit is usable for anything that doesn't involve politics or any "taboo" topics. So basically, not for many things.

 

[woodlandcreature]

I don't have anything else, and this is the only place I can speak my mind. I can be honest here. I can explain my feelings and not just end it at the "I'm tired" part. While I cannot stand people irl (and generally need quite a substantial amount of alone time daily to decompress), I still find myself getting extremely lonely. It's nice to feel like I have people I can relate to even if we never speak. If I do make it through the year, I don't think I'll make it past Feb/ early April. I can feel myself dying (fast), and I'd like at least some comfort before I go. Most of life is agony anyways (existence is learning what suffering is and can be - suffering can come in many situations and degrees but it's always there which is why we humans have an idea of "good times." can't have good without the bad). I might as well have a few moments of not feeling as alone (though I know I still am) before I go. It's also generally a decent place to get info and statistics. There's misinformation, yeah, but there's also a lot of legit info and conversations about methods which is very helpful.

 

[Spite]

I haven't been here for too long compared to other users here, but I feel like this site is something of a place of refuge for me - somewhere where I can speak what's truly on my mind that I'm not able to tell anyone in my real day-to-day life. This site is where all my suppressed thoughts come out. It feels like the equivalent of journaling my thoughts down freely, no matter how dark or morbid they may be.

Besides, most other websites and forums on the Internet don't even allow you to discuss suicide at all. I know one forum that outright bans anyone who even dares to mention suicide/suicidal thoughts, and that kinda sucks. :/

 

[death over slavery]

SaSu is a great for me since the most far-end spectrum social topic, suicide, is unfiltered in this community. Also, the people here are great unlike other forums and I reckon, even greater than society itself

 

[lunar02102009]

I'm genuinely curious on why so many people stay here for years. It has been for me as well, but I have a problem letting it go even tho in the long run it's not healthy reading too many dark thoughts. I had laughs and good moments, but also bad ones. I felt welcome and abandoned. Many things over the years. What's your opinion or experience?

Because people understand. They support you with your choice even if its death or if its life , and second i am too much of a retard to kill myself SI gets the best of me i have tried to ctb 3 times but of course they didnt work instead got brain damage . This is my only home left

 

[SoulCage]

Many people here describe reality the way I see it: cruel, disgusting... Not really worth it. I read it and no longer feel crazy/stupid for believing something that doesn't align with what mental health "experts" say.
It's soothing.. somehow. Comforting.

Talking about my pain irl is always exhausting, because nobody seems to care or understand - also because I am really bad with bringing my chaotic mind to words (writing works better for me). Here, it just works. No toxic positivity, no platitudes, no gaslighting.

 

[FadingSnowFake]

Still here cause I'm still alive and still suicidal.