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ImnotCTB

ImnotCTB

Member
Jun 11, 2025
62
Wyd when you stay up at night? Why do you stay up at night?

Just curious. I stay up at night because I feel like my time is taken away, I'm taking it back by staying up. I usually read online novels or play games on my phone, maybe sneak out for a smoke and a stroll sometimes
 
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Rudi

Rudi

𝔐𝔬𝔯𝔦 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬 𝔰𝔢𝔡 𝔳𝔦𝔳𝔢𝔯𝔢 𝔳𝔬𝔩𝔬
Oct 15, 2024
152
I like being on my own and having time for myself. I usually listen to music and draw or write while doing so. Nighttime is much more comfortable than daytime I feel.
 
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kitkat9234

Experienced
Nov 27, 2024
266
Usually doom scroll on here, FB or Instagram. I'll be tired the whole day yet never go to sleep early. It's not like I actually get sleep it's more like a light rest. I hesitate trying to fall asleep at a decent hour because then I'll just be alone with my thoughts eating me up inside. I try to listen to meditations on YouTube which help for a bit. But I wake up multiple times throughout the night.
 
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lost_one

lost_one

Once
Nov 3, 2024
111
Nothing much, just enjoy the darkness, listen to music, I used to love to sit at my window, I can't now. Or just play games on my PC.
 
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EvisceratedJester

EvisceratedJester

|| What Else Could I Be But a Jester ||
Oct 21, 2023
4,955
Watch videos, listen to music, draw, and watch shows or movies.
 
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Parasitism

Parasitism

Member
May 27, 2025
51
I've been drinking every night for months now. I watch youtube and sleep on the sofa. I haven't slept in my bed for a long time. I don't have a TV in there so its just me and my thoughts.
 
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Daniel_79

Daniel_79

Member
Jun 29, 2025
7
I like to sit outside and enjoy the peace. Every other time of day seems so chaotic to me. If it's a clear night I'll look at the stars and think about the sheer scale and the unknowns of the universe and wonder why things feel so fucked up on this meaningless rock of ours
 
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psp3000

psp3000

Enlightened
May 20, 2023
1,573
I usually
- check whats going on here
- watch a movie maybe or a documentary
- play hanafuda
- play 2048 and buy / bid on items on everskies
- look at, read, and save old websites
- have some dessert

lots of multitasking in order not to form a thought in summary
 
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nowherelilies

nowherelilies

sick of the sun
Jun 30, 2025
13
i like night time the most because it's really quiet. it's the only time when i don't get anxious because i'm really alone (and there's no possibility that people are gonna knock at my apartment)

recently, i've been:
• doomscrolling on this site A LOT
• stalking my ex online (bad habit because he cheated on me yet i'm still clinging onto the hope that he feels remorse for what he did)
• playing games like alice madness returns
 
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Forever Sleep

Earned it we have...
May 4, 2022
12,297
It's usually because I've stayed up late working. Like tonight. It was around 11pm by the time I'd finished and tidied away. Then, I just enjoy the sensation of finally being able to relax. I want to wind down, likely drink a night cap to make me sleepy. I'm also quite often so tired that I put off getting back up to brush my teeth and get ready for bed. Frustrating. I become too tired to get ready to sleep then, I become over tired and eventually can't sleep!

Usually, it's a mix of coming here and watching a few YouTube videos, checking emails etc. It's rare it gets to 12pm without me finally getting to bed because I don't want to be up too late. That makes me feel so guilty.
 
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starboy2k

starboy2k

the only thing I can do right….is be a burden
May 21, 2025
123
🌙maladaptive "nightdream"
🌙dance in front of my own shadow until I tire myself out
🌙listen to the same 4 songs over and over again
🌙doomscroll on YouTube
🌙stuff my face with whatever Im in the mood to eat even if Im not hungry
🌙spend sometime on here when I want to scratch the "suicidal" itch
🌙stare at the ceiling and let the trauma replay in my head until I fall asleep in the morning
 
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FoxSauce

FoxSauce

Emotional unstable like and IKEA table
Aug 23, 2024
611
....scrill here...draw..think about my life or cry or idk meme


Replay all my mistakes till morning. Thinking everyone will leave me beacuse I'm a disgusting human being that doesn't deserve to breath thr same air as my dog 😀
 
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33K1LLM3

33K1LLM3

Pretty Girl, Sick Mind
Jun 28, 2025
69
I think about how I've wasted my life away all these years as I drink peppermint tea and dry off after the shower I had before…

Sometimes I think about my ctb and imagine myself doing it or I just imagine myself to be someone else and just think of the life I could've had…
 
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Apathy79

Apathy79

Elementalist
Oct 13, 2019
859
Well it's after midnight here. I went for a walk earlier from about 8-10pm on the beach. Got back and chucked the tennis on TV in the background (still going). Went through my usual tabs online, including here. Watched a podcast on Youtube. Had a bite to eat. Tried to plan out the next couple of days. Did a few ankle rehab exercises while watching the tennis. In the next break, will likely brush teeth and move into the bedroom. Stay on here in bed while watching the tennis in the background. Probably try to go to sleep when this match finishes. Pretty standard night.
 
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Forveleth

I knew I forgot to do something when I was 15...
Mar 26, 2024
2,294
My flavor of insomnia means I wake up early instead of stay up late but same/diff. Because it is when I wake up, I usually start my day. I will exercise if my mood and energy allows and make breakfast. After that it depends. If I can do something productive quietly, I'll do that. Otherwise I just play games and/or watch stuff until it is time to go to work.
 

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