Afraid of consuming too much because it will distract me too much from original thoughts

[Motoko]

Do you consume more or less since you've been wanting to ctb? On one hand I want to consume more because I don't know when all of this this may end. On the other hand, the more I consume, the more attachment I may feel towards this planet and I will stay longer here because of that. By consuming I mean for example media consumption: playing games, watching movies, etc. But it can also be related to consuming other stuff, like smoking, drinking a lot of coffee etc. Whatever makes your dopamine go up, even if only for a moment.

It's like prolonging the inevitable. It's like all of this is just one big cope. It's like I've been occupied with something since I was born just to distract myself from original thoughts of not wanting to be here.

Anyone can relate? What's your approach?

 

[Forveleth]

I consume the sane as before. My philosophy is yo live until I an ready to die. If earthly things are keeping me here then life must not be too bad. I have been low before and everything stopped mattering then. My depression and desire to fie all overpwoeer everything else.

 

[jw_sisyphus97]

Also the same as before. I think I've always tried to avoid consuming things just to get a quick hit or to distract myself, like op. I'd rather just sit in the reality of things than pretend theres a temporary escape