Discussion What are you feeling right now? don't think. just type.

[Dejected 55]

Everything seems cruel. Even the things not purposefully cruel are still cruel. Sometimes those are the most cruel, because you can dislike someone or dismiss someone being cruel to you on purpose as someone you don't need in your life... but cruel by default, by nature, that cruelty is just there and you feel it is meant for you, you somehow deserve it, because it follows you and nothing you say or do changes it. I do not want to hurt. I do not think I deserve to hurt. But I hurt anyway. Some days I hurt more than others, but the pain is always there. Everything seems cruel.

 

[darksouls]

my pains are wearing me down

 

[Dejected 55]

I am in a daze. I woke up in a daze, wandered around the house in a daze. Trying to decide whether or not I need/want to go out today, but I am in a daze. The fog never lifts, it just moves around. I don't even care, it is just the way things are now.

 

[darksouls]

I wander around in an endless labyrinth of cold and darkness

 

[Dying Opportunity]

First time that I'm not required to attend the family meet up dinner with my parents and our realtors (they became friends) and I'm relieved that I don't have to get drunk in order not to get depressed in public about being a NEET for well over a decade. They are nice people, but being reminded of how many people I've disappointed fuels my desire to CTB.

 

[darksouls]

I am a lonely wanderer who finds no peace

 

[CutToRelease]

Sad
Disgusting like I need the shower but even if I did it wouldn't change a thing. I just feel like I'm a piece of trash.

 

[Dejected 55]

So much pain, loneliness and pain... strangely numbness at the same time. To be in pain and numb at the same time is difficult to explain, and hard to understand if you don't know how it feels.

 

[Sprite_Geist]

I NEED to complete these projects, but I am also very sleepy; when I focus on one of these I lose out on the other. I am feeling anxious.