Time for the bus

[Tempest]

I've got my chair, my nitrogen tank, my exit bag, all set up just they way they should be. There's an email to my landlord in my scheduled folder. Just sitting now, coming to terms with my final resting place and watching Frasier. I used to watch it to fall asleep, and the show brought me a lot of comfort during the pandemic and before that, when I worked night shifts. Only seems fitting to watch a few episodes before I go.

A lot of people here have CTB within the past few days, and that's given me the inner certainty I needed. Resolute, no more regrets now. After a life of disharmony, I can end the song just fine. The struggle finally stops. It's just me versus survival instinct, and then it'll be nothing.

This forum has brought me immeasurable comfort in my last days. I hope you all find the peace you've been looking for, whether that's in life or in death. Goodbye to everyone here, and to everyone in my life to whom I can't say my goodbyes. Gonna board the bus soon. I'm scared, but I'm ready.

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

I only saw you around for a few days, and seems you were relatively new. Is sad to see someone go, but is what it is.

Remember that is completely fine to back out, we support your choice, either is postponing it or going with it.

I wish you the best and may the stars guide you.

Best of luck.

 

[Tempest]

I tore a hole in my exit bag somehow. I'm not even mad; it's like the inconvenience released all the tension, somehow. Good thing I didn't drink any alcohol yet!

There's something grounding about making the instrument of my own death right before the act of suicide. It's creative and destructive in a way that I find quite poetic.

 

[Lone_Gray_Wolf]

I tore a hole in my exit bag somehow. I'm not even mad; it's like the inconvenience released all the tension, somehow. Good thing I didn't drink any alcohol yet!

There's something grounding about making the instrument of my own death right before the act of suicide. It's creative and destructive in a way that I find quite poetic.

Art of fixing the tool to fix what could not be fixed. Art of reflection while at it. I see what you mean.

 

[I'm Darkness]

Too difficult to kill oneself.

 

[fox_wannabe]

I tore a hole in my exit bag somehow. I'm not even mad; it's like the inconvenience released all the tension, somehow. Good thing I didn't drink any alcohol yet!

There's something grounding about making the instrument of my own death right before the act of suicide. It's creative and destructive in a way that I find quite poetic.

Glad you here,

Ctb with idle gas Is really hard. I also attempted It and never succeeded, I couldn't put the mask on. Si kicks in very strong with that one I am afraid.

 

[8evergo]

habe den Mut auch in den nächsten tagen CTB ich denke ist ist die richtige zeit es zu machen

 

[FuneralCry]

Of course it is very difficult to ctb. Whatever happens, I hope you find peace.