I want to live, but only see Catch the Bus as a lasting solution

[Defenestration]

Hi, I want to live, but only see Catch the Bus as a lasting solution.

I enjoy the things in life: I love watching sports on TV or keeping up with the news, eating, watching movies, listening to music, playing video games, being with my sister and parents. I met a wonderful friend two months ago, and I have feelings for him,
see friends ...
That's a lot of things I enjoy.

BUT despite all that, there's too much negativity to deal with: my mental illnesses that are ruining my life, my mother's Alzheimer's that I have to manage every day, and lots of other difficult everyday things...

I feel trapped in Catch the Bus because it's the best medium/long-term solution for me, even though it's incredibly selfish, because things are only going to get worse and worse in my life (incurable mental illnesses, my mother's Alzheimer's that will progress, my father getting older, and my dog too).


Others in my situation?

 

[RadiantNumber]

Hope you'll find peace here or afterlife, I have the same, if everything fails I'll CTB, but also this is one way ticket and this scares me the most

 

[tooafraidtodiez]

Hi, I want to live, but only see Catch the Bus as a lasting solution.

I enjoy the things in life: I love watching sports on TV or keeping up with the news, eating, watching movies, listening to music, playing video games, being with my sister and parents. I met a wonderful friend two months ago, and I have feelings for him,
see friends ...
That's a lot of things I enjoy.

BUT despite all that, there's too much negativity to deal with: my mental illnesses that are ruining my life, my mother's Alzheimer's that I have to manage every day, and lots of other difficult everyday things...

I feel trapped in Catch the Bus because it's the best medium/long-term solution for me, even though it's incredibly selfish, because things are only going to get worse and worse in my life (incurable mental illnesses, my mother's Alzheimer's that will progress, my father getting older, and my dog too).


Others in my situation?

If you can manage somehow and you're not in any physical/financial trouble i think it's better to not CTB. You mentioned enjoying several things in life which is good, I can only enjoy 1 or 2 and not before it gets ruined by my physical pain and disability. I can't say for certain that life gets better, but CTB whether it's by SN or other method is not easy by any means, you will feel pain and you will struggle. If you feel like you can still be helped whether it's by therapy or medicine, definitely get help. Do the things you want in life and keep doing your hobby until you pass by old age. Just watch online how people ctb (for ex by sn) and you will see it's a real struggle, it's definitely worth to keep going on if you are able to.

 

[Defenestration]

If you can manage somehow and you're not in any physical/financial trouble i think it's better to not CTB. You mentioned enjoying several things in life which is good, I can only enjoy 1 or 2 and not before it gets ruined by my physical pain and disability. I can't say for certain that life gets better, but CTB whether it's by SN or other method is not easy by any means, you will feel pain and you will struggle. If you feel like you can still be helped whether it's by therapy or medicine, definitely get help. Do the things you want in life and keep doing your hobby until you pass by old age. Just watch online how people ctb (for ex by sn) and you will see it's a real struggle, it's definitely worth to keep going on if you are able to.

The problem is that despite all this, I'm very tired, and my mother's condition is only going to worsen... I dream of dying... The things I love in life aren't enough... I'm exhausted

 

[Aflame5926]

i get that most of us are here.

I met a wonderful friend two months ago, and I have feelings for him,
see friends ...
That's a lot of things I enjoy.

while you kinda should learn to love you self (never learned that lesson myself through so its me being hyprocritc)

that might be a ticket to get out. what is the worst thing what can happen? CTB?

this place aint gonna run away. try to focuss on the things that you can still enjoy.

once that ends you can always come here <3 please hang in there

 

[Defenestration]

i get that most of us are here.

while you kinda should learn to love you self (never learned that lesson myself through so its me being hyprocritc)

that might be a ticket to get out. what is the worst thing what can happen? CTB?

this place aint gonna run away. try to focuss on the things that you can still enjoy.

once that ends you can always come here <3 please hang in there

The problem is that later, when my mother becomes even more dependent or if my father's health declines, I'll be forced to stay alive. I've been putting off suicide for several years now; I'm not going to get better. There aren't enough advantages to staying alive.