Sparkly rainbow
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- Nov 28, 2025
- 6
I am a failure in life and even my parents constantly tell me that. When I was still in high school, I was always incompetent to do anything or was lacking something. I saw people around me living life to the fullest eg. hanging out and making new friends/romantic partners, getting good grades etc. Since I attended a semi private school, the majority of people had at least one redeeming quality such as having good looks, getting high scores or being rich. Meanwhile I was a loser with non of those aspects and being around fake friends. I wish I just had one of these merits but instead I am stuck in a mentally ill, ugly, poor and have a stupid brain which I hate myself for. The only time when I don't experience constant mental anguish is when I harness my self hatred and self harm to punish myself for being like this. I am 20 years old now but I had these thoughts when I was 12 when high school started. I know now that now I finished high school some years ago I am supposed to move onto the next chapter of my life but my whole high school experience has left me with lost opportunities and mental scars. As a result of my experiences, I only have a little amount real friends, lost my social skills, experience psychosis, other mental illnesses and a feeling of despair and regret what my life has turned into.
