Hes guys. My brain is killing me.. i have chronich torturing condion with 1000 symptoms..
Agony in my whole body .. Depression.. dissociation.. can barely talk and move.. i am living in hell. I am 26 now.. all started after a breakdown and a bad reaction to an antidepressant 3 years ago.. i tried everything i could to recover but i just get worse and worse.. every sec is toture and i wish i was dead or never born at all. I am suffering from Depression and strange Sensations in my body since i am 13.. still my life was pretty good .. at least i Was able to live a normal life and enjoy Things even tho life was never easy and I tried everyday to be the best me.. took care for myself, did a lot if Sport no drugs and alk and kept pushing myself to become the best me.. i think i have become a pretty nice sensible empathatic Person.. i could never understand why most people are.. yea .. are idiots with no selfreflection who cant put themself in someones' Shoes.. yea but Well.. still life hit me as hard as it could.. i wanted to become a psychotherapist but help people who struggled like did since i am a Teenager.. but now i am a mess. Disabled.. numb and already dead. Just beging to get out of my missery. No even able to think or to use my brain or read a Page in a book.. i cant understand and i wont ever accept how These things can happen to mostly good, smart and sensible people..
I know i Was not perfect but i at least tried make this World a better place.. Well i failed.. or this life betrayed me. I know i am not the only one who got rly fucked up by life.. but why is life such a bitch?
I have always hoped there is something Bigger in life.. that life has a purpose , what there is a Meaning in everything.. but sadly i lost that hope. Life is a Meaningless gamble, some get lucky some not. I decided to end my misery soon. It is just too painful to exist now, and i wont live like this. It makes no sense to keep Holding on and suffer for a life that has no meaning in itself. I just wanna end my pain.
Thank you for reading my Post,
Sorry when my writing is bad.. my brain is a mess..
Looking forward to read your thoughts about my Post.
You can also ask me everything u want to.
Agony in my whole body .. Depression.. dissociation.. can barely talk and move.. i am living in hell. I am 26 now.. all started after a breakdown and a bad reaction to an antidepressant 3 years ago.. i tried everything i could to recover but i just get worse and worse.. every sec is toture and i wish i was dead or never born at all. I am suffering from Depression and strange Sensations in my body since i am 13.. still my life was pretty good .. at least i Was able to live a normal life and enjoy Things even tho life was never easy and I tried everyday to be the best me.. took care for myself, did a lot if Sport no drugs and alk and kept pushing myself to become the best me.. i think i have become a pretty nice sensible empathatic Person.. i could never understand why most people are.. yea .. are idiots with no selfreflection who cant put themself in someones' Shoes.. yea but Well.. still life hit me as hard as it could.. i wanted to become a psychotherapist but help people who struggled like did since i am a Teenager.. but now i am a mess. Disabled.. numb and already dead. Just beging to get out of my missery. No even able to think or to use my brain or read a Page in a book.. i cant understand and i wont ever accept how These things can happen to mostly good, smart and sensible people..
I know i Was not perfect but i at least tried make this World a better place.. Well i failed.. or this life betrayed me. I know i am not the only one who got rly fucked up by life.. but why is life such a bitch?
I have always hoped there is something Bigger in life.. that life has a purpose , what there is a Meaning in everything.. but sadly i lost that hope. Life is a Meaningless gamble, some get lucky some not. I decided to end my misery soon. It is just too painful to exist now, and i wont live like this. It makes no sense to keep Holding on and suffer for a life that has no meaning in itself. I just wanna end my pain.
Thank you for reading my Post,
Sorry when my writing is bad.. my brain is a mess..
Looking forward to read your thoughts about my Post.
You can also ask me everything u want to.
