Venting sometimes i wish i could sh and it makes me feel like an imposter

[galaxid]

I don't know why the idea appeals to me so much. I've wanted to cut since I was in high school. That's generally regarded as a bad idea, though, so I never have. I just write about it.

Given how much I think about it, writing is probably the only thing that has prevented me from giving it a shot. After all, it doesn't matter what kinda fucked up shit my characters do-- they aren't me, so its healthier than doing it to myself. Even if I really, really want to. But there are times like these where no amount of writing erases the desire to do the thing.

As an addendum: BPD is out here kicking my ass.

 

[EvisceratedJester]

What is there to feel like an imposter about? If writing about characters SHing helps you cope with your emotions in a healthy manner then who cares? I'd much rather you do that than actually attempt to SH and I'm saying this as someone who has been SHing for years. Plenty of people write about shit in order to cope, including about things that they have never done in real life and don't plan on doing it anytime soon.

I understand that you may feel urges to do it but actually doing it will not satisfy you. The urges will still be there, it's just that now you are more likely to act on them.

 

[BeijaFlor]

dont be fooled...

the collective unconcious is real

hurting yourself is a form of catharsis...

of feeling

when we dont know anything but pain, we seek meaning in pain...

altho, as a friend, i must say...

you wont get to actually CTB by cuting....

you can use it as a form of understanding, but...

if you really, really... really want to CTB, thats not the way to go

 

[binkie]

If writing about SH helps you cope like SH'ing helps me cope you should probably just keep writing. At least for now. It's a coping mechanism at the end of the day, so if your coping mechanism is working without causing harm you shouldn't change that. You don't have to feel like an imposter, you're doing what you need to do to feel better and that's a good thing.