I watched a hanging video and now I'm even more worried that something will go wrong with my attempt. The person did cbt so I guess it was successful but she struggled so much.
In despair I went all slasher happy, not in an attempt to ctb , just to release the pain and the pressure. Is it wrong that it felt good, that it is the only thing that feels good?
I'm doubting my ability ctb. There is nothing in my life to keep me here. I have tried so many times to improve my life, to change myself but I'm me and I'm my biggest problem. I don't want to be alive but I'm so scared of something going wrong and surviving as a vegetable. I don't know what to do anymore. Attempting to ctb in such an emotional state is always risky. I'm just crying my eyes out and don't know what to do
In despair I went all slasher happy, not in an attempt to ctb , just to release the pain and the pressure. Is it wrong that it felt good, that it is the only thing that feels good?
I'm doubting my ability ctb. There is nothing in my life to keep me here. I have tried so many times to improve my life, to change myself but I'm me and I'm my biggest problem. I don't want to be alive but I'm so scared of something going wrong and surviving as a vegetable. I don't know what to do anymore. Attempting to ctb in such an emotional state is always risky. I'm just crying my eyes out and don't know what to do
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