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hellohowareyou

hellohowareyou

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Sep 12, 2026
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Hello,

I'm new here so please forgive me if I sound weird or anything (I'm used to always offending someone in some way, but I swear I never mean to). I am currently considering ending things - I think it's time. However, what makes this task much harder is not knowing exactly how to in order to ensure success.

I've considered crashing my car into a bridge, but I have a feeling my body might instinctively brake before impact thereby lessening the force actually needed.

I'm considering the train tracks, but I'm not fond of getting an innocent person involved.

I tried putting a bag over my head but then I realized I might actually need to restrain my arms in some way and honestly... I don't want to die bound.

I was wondering about Conibear, and I was wondering what he used. I know it was some sort of chemical but everything is always so censored around this topic.

Any ideas on something I could drink that would make sure I'm gone?
I'd just like the option.
I just found out about sodium nitrite. Does anyone have a recipe they wouldn't mind sharing? :)
 
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rainhappy

rainhappy

I just want to die, it's so funny without a encore
Aug 29, 2026
38
I don't know anything about this at all—I'm more of a "rope" person 😅. But maybe a corrosive product, like a toilet drain cleaner that could be acidic? Something really powerful that would break up clogs in a matter of seconds. That just made me wonder—would it completely disintegrate if you dropped it into a tub full of acid?
 
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h4ppyhypoxia

h4ppyhypoxia

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Aug 8, 2026
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I don't know anything about this at all—I'm more of a "rope" person 😅. But maybe a corrosive product, like a toilet drain cleaner that could be acidic? Something really powerful that would break up clogs in a matter of seconds. That just made me wonder—would it completely disintegrate if you dropped it into a tub full of acid?
in true sayori fashion
 
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rainhappy

rainhappy

I just want to die, it's so funny without a encore
Aug 29, 2026
38
in true sayori fashion
Of course 🤣! I consider myself 95% like her in terms of behavior; if my death can be exactly the same, I'll have achieved my goal 🥹. But I don't think the next attempt will involve a rope—though maybe it will; it'll depend on the architecture.
 
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hellohowareyou

hellohowareyou

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Sep 12, 2026
11
I don't know anything about this at all—I'm more of a "rope" person 😅. But maybe a corrosive product, like a toilet drain cleaner that could be acidic? Something really powerful that would break up clogs in a matter of seconds. That just made me wonder—would it completely disintegrate if you dropped it into a tub full of acid?
that seems really painful lol I don't want to risk anyone finding me before it's over, you know? If I'm screaming and writhing in pain... lol

I wish I had a gun, I'm honestly more of a gun person I think lol
 
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SilentVelvet

SilentVelvet

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Jan 28, 2026
50
You'll find a lot of threads here, especially about SN. There's also a protocol that I'd follow.
You'll quickly figure out where to get everything if you read through this
 
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rainhappy

rainhappy

I just want to die, it's so funny without a encore
Aug 29, 2026
38
that seems really painful lol I don't want to risk anyone finding me before it's over, you know? If I'm screaming and writhing in pain... lol
Probably 😅... but it's kind of cool, isn't it? 🤣

I wish I had a gun, I'm honestly more of a gun person I think lol
I don't mean to scare you, but a lot of people survive this, and unfortunately, they're left with a lifelong disability afterward and are unable to try again (life is so unfair).
 
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hellohowareyou

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Sep 12, 2026
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You'll find a lot of threads here, especially about SN. There's also a protocol that I'd follow.
You'll quickly figure out where to get everything if you read through this
I just learned that getting SN is kinda tricky :/
Probably 😅... but it's kind of cool, isn't it? 🤣


I don't mean to scare you, but a lot of people survive this, and unfortunately, they're left with a lifelong disability afterward and are unable to try again (life is so unfair).
Doesn't matter anyways cause where I live, guns are a myth lol
 
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SilentVelvet

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Jan 28, 2026
50
I just learned that getting SN is kinda tricky :/

Doesn't matter anyways cause where I live, guns are a myth lol
At first, the topic seems very complicated, but it's actually not that complicated. I don't want to give any specific tips here, but there are plenty of threads on how to reach out to companies, etc :)
 
hellohowareyou

hellohowareyou

Member
Sep 12, 2026
11
I dont understand 🤔. Sorry, i'm french, so sometimes it's difficult to understand everything in english 😅.
Haha that's okay 🙂 your English is very good though 😊 in my country guns are illegal haha that's what I mean to say
 
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Serena 2026

Serena 2026

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Jan 15, 2026
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I don't know anything about this at all—I'm more of a "rope" person 😅. But maybe a corrosive product, like a toilet drain cleaner that could be acidic? Something really powerful that would break up clogs in a matter of seconds. That just made me wonder—would it completely disintegrate if you dropped it into a tub full of acid?
That looks extremely painful to me!! 🫨😬😵‍💫
 

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