Discussion Regret not doing it on the spot

[fkyou]

Idk what the fk made made me think it's okay to stay here another year then ctb ..wtf?!!! I made my self miserable with my own stupidity..why..why!!!!why would I make myself miserable on top of the misery I lived before!..why would I stay here for longer with the knowledge that I'm ctbing later on...wtf .. I was supposed to do it on the spot without hesitation.. maybe after 2 or 3 months the MAX to figure out the method requirements.why I made myself live for long time with the knowledge that I'm done and my life is over..that sounds like you asked for voluntarily self image torture.. if I was going to do something as grand as ending my life I should take it seriously and not play with time cause if you fkn know your life is shit and over you shouldn't stay there living with that fact right?!!!!

 

[EmptyBottle]

ambivalence maybe... tho still, there were times where I wished my 2022 attempt succeeded, and somehow, times where I was ok with existence.

 

[Feldsparc]

My life is going to be shit too. My future is uncertain and unclear. My parents will be burdened with me. Before that happens i will ctb