What to do about my pain

[logar]

Every damn night, I stay up hours thinking about my horrible life feeling like absolute shit and it really sucks because I hate the feeling so much. I wish I could just turn my feelings off, so I could stop feeling like this. I just want to be let out so badly..

But no matter how hard I try, I can't see how I can escape this pain. I just feel like I'll be stuck with it forever. I don't even do anything anymore, my whole life now is just crying and feeling like absolute shit. I really wonder how people have the ability to wake up and actually look forward to their day, how people can gather the energy to do things. I just can't do any of that. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just a worthless blob that is only here to exist. Why should I keep living if this is what my life turned out to be?

 

[Lost in a Dream]

I'm sorry you feel so horrible. I wish I knew what to suggest but I don't because I've been there. Surprisingly I managed to escape some of my pain I was under, but the physical stuff will never go away unfortunately. Not sure how I managed to do it, but even on my good days I still think about ending my life anyway, so I guess there's no escaping that.

Wishing the best for you, whatever that happens to be.

 

[Ben 111]

Every damn night, I stay up hours thinking about my horrible life feeling like absolute shit and it really sucks because I hate the feeling so much. I wish I could just turn my feelings off, so I could stop feeling like this. I just want to be let out so badly..

But no matter how hard I try, I can't see how I can escape this pain. I just feel like I'll be stuck with it forever. I don't even do anything anymore, my whole life now is just crying and feeling like absolute shit. I really wonder how people have the ability to wake up and actually look forward to their day, how people can gather the energy to do things. I just can't do any of that. I don't know what's wrong with me. I'm just a worthless blob that is only here to exist. Why should I keep living if this is what my life turned out to be?

I feel the exact same way ur not alone