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Butterfly-death

Butterfly-death

Death take my hand, I want to dance with you
Apr 5, 2024
86
I have no future. I can't keep up with society I'm too mentally unwell no mater what medications I'm put on. So I have this fear I will just end up homeless then die in the worst possible way

I'm so worthless and pathetic doing nothing with my life

I'm just a burden to my parents

I cry every night in fear of the future and all the horrible things happening to me in the present

I don't know what to do honestly I feel sick

I must deserve the worst :(
 
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CleanGopher

CleanGopher

Member
Apr 5, 2026
40
Boi, the best way to help yourself is the last strand of hope and doing things, science proves it no matter what other stupid ppl say, 1 month ago I was texting the sucide hotline non stop cuz they are the only ones who listened and now I only gained my confidence through just doing good things which makes it hard for me to even focus on anything bad

Everyone's different though and if things get too bad for me, it's fine if I kms b/c no one cared about my emotions to begin with cuz I'm a guy lmao
 
nails

nails

wait i'm goated
Feb 12, 2023
490
i understand your fears and struggles. you don't deserve bad things, you deserve healing and relief from your pain. i'm sorry you have to go through this, i hope you can find some peace.
 
Ben 111

Ben 111

Experienced
Apr 29, 2026
200
Im so sorry 🫂🫂🫂🫂
I have no future. I can't keep up with society I'm too mentally unwell no mater what medications I'm put on. So I have this fear I will just end up homeless then die in the worst possible way

I'm so worthless and pathetic doing nothing with my life

I'm just a burden to my parents

I cry every night in fear of the future and all the horrible things happening to me in the present

I don't know what to do honestly I feel sick

I must deserve the worst :(
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dust-in-the-wind

dust-in-the-wind

Animal Lover
Aug 24, 2024
1,074
I'm so sorry to hear this and I can relate. I dont know how many meds you have tried but there are so many more out there that may work for you. What is your diagnosis?
I'm a 57f dealing with depression, anxiety and ocd most of my life. Some years worse than others. Past 3 years worst ever. I can no longer function in society but I made it this far. Maybe I can give you some words of wisdom if I know more of your situation, for example, how old are you?
 
9dominos

9dominos

Likes to Question Everything
Jul 4, 2026
3
I have no future. I can't keep up with society I'm too mentally unwell no mater what medications I'm put on. So I have this fear I will just end up homeless then die in the worst possible way

I'm so worthless and pathetic doing nothing with my life

I'm just a burden to my parents

I cry every night in fear of the future and all the horrible things happening to me in the present

I don't know what to do honestly I feel sick

I must deserve the worst :(
I feel u man, shit just sucks at times like this, and sure maybe things won't get better, maybe we aren't good people, and maybe we feel we deserve death in the worst possible ways, and I won't try to convince u to not feel this way, but as someone who feels the same exact way, I've been able to carry on by guilting myself on how it might hurt anyone who'd care for me and tell myself I could have no, definitive idea of how my future could look, probably not the healthiest way to keep going but if it works even for a bit while u find ur own reason to live, then that's enough
 
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thekop85

Sorry I'm not good at English.
Jul 3, 2026
64
I understand your pain.
I, too, have felt that my life is worthless for a long time now.
I'm in so much pain that I can't even go on living.
It's obvious that my future will only get more miserable if things continue this way, and I'm just wasting my time for no reason.
I want to end it cleanly and hope there is the way...
 

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