lwovely
cat lover
- Oct 13, 2024
- 63
The day is approaching soon for my CTB date and I'm honestly nervous. I don't plan on practicing how to do it and I might go straight into it. I don't have the supplies yet but I'll buy it immediately as soon as I get my cheque.
I feel really bad because my partners birthday is coming up soon and I'm not so sure if I should tell him or not. I plan on treating him out for dinner before I go and just giving him a special moment. I don't want to write a letter about my suicide, I just want to go.
It hurts me to do this because he values a long lasting relationship and I cannot give that to him. I'm already too deep into this and it isn't something I can just back out of. I just hope he understands it's not his fault and it's mine.
I feel really bad because my partners birthday is coming up soon and I'm not so sure if I should tell him or not. I plan on treating him out for dinner before I go and just giving him a special moment. I don't want to write a letter about my suicide, I just want to go.
It hurts me to do this because he values a long lasting relationship and I cannot give that to him. I'm already too deep into this and it isn't something I can just back out of. I just hope he understands it's not his fault and it's mine.
