My cousin funnerl is today

[Red87]

My cousin funnerl is today I'm not going to it I just can't handle it is it wrong that I wish is was me and not him is 11 years younger then me he still had a whole life ahead of him I wish I could trade him spots I know I'll be joining him and my husband in a week's time

 

[Joey]

I'm here if you ever need to talk man :)

 

[Red87]

Thank you but I'm a girl I'm not sure why everyone thinks I'm a guy lol but it's ok

 

[MsMaudlin]

Thats so sad. Sending you hugs, Red!
❤

 

[Red87]

Thank you msmaudlin

 

[Wisdom3_1-9]

Sounds like you've been through a lot. I'm sorry you've had to endure so much. Sending you virtual hugs.

 

[somniummalum]

Im very sorry. I'm here if you want to talk to someone, just pm me.

Why did he die?

 

[Red87]

I think Thursday or Friday he shot his self he was on 24 he has a 1 year old son
He was so sad he did it on his mother's porch

 

[somniummalum]

I think Thursday or Friday he shot his self he was on 24 he has a 1 year old son
He was so sad he did it on his mother's porch

That must've been a rough sight. He had depression?

 

[Joey]

Thank you msmaudlin

Oh don't worry, I didn't think you were a guy at all. I say like "man" and "dude" to some people at times.

 

[Red87]

O lol ok

 

[SSlostallhope]

I'm really sorry for your loss. Grief is so hard to live with :(

 

[Red87]

Yeah it is I'm been grieving for my husband that past away in December now my cousin it's heartbreaking but I hope to see them both soon

 

[Deleted member 17949]

It hurts me to see others losing their lives when they didn't want to. I feel guilty holding onto a life I hate.

 

[Red87]

I know what u mean my husband should be here with me we had a life and a future now it's gone the only thing I can hold onto is the thought of returning to him passing over he always said don't be afraid to die because to die is a great adventure just waiting for us to step into the unknown I always thought in the back of my mind there has to be something there some magical realm waiting to be explored and I can wait to see it

 

[Hopeindeath!]

I am sorry for your loss.

 

[Red87]

Thank u hopeindeath

 

[bluesky1972-2019]

I know what u mean my husband should be here with me we had a life and a future now it's gone the only thing I can hold onto is the thought of returning to him passing over he always said don't be afraid to die because to die is a great adventure just waiting for us to step into the unknown I always thought in the back of my mind there has to be something there some magical realm waiting to be explored and I can wait to see it

Sorry for your losses. It must be so hard to deal with that.
I know what you mean about what is ahead after you CTB. I keep thinking that the world has been around for millions of years. Our lives a just a brief moment in time. We simply go back to where we came from. I'm hoping to travel there soon. I have all I need ready to CTB! It's just a matter of when, not if.