I don't want to fall asleep due to the fear of some stupid dream or hallucination being my last experience.
I also have an irrational fear of crippling myself or causing myself pain. Even things like shooting myself in the head, or jumping off a tall building feel risky.
The only method I'm near comfortable with is placing my head on a rail, but even that is problematic.
I want my brain to be destroyed in an instant, that's the only way I'd feel comfortable doing it. Now I don't know much about trains, will my head meet the wheel first? Is that piece of metal too low? Or does it depend on the type of train? Yeah, I know, it's stupid...
I also don't want to traumatize a train driver or cause inconvenience for so many people.
So I am looking for something with a similar effect but without these issues.
Any kind of help is appreciated! And yeah, I'm picky. The thing is, I don't want to worry about severe pain being my last experience in life.
I also have an irrational fear of crippling myself or causing myself pain. Even things like shooting myself in the head, or jumping off a tall building feel risky.
The only method I'm near comfortable with is placing my head on a rail, but even that is problematic.
I want my brain to be destroyed in an instant, that's the only way I'd feel comfortable doing it. Now I don't know much about trains, will my head meet the wheel first? Is that piece of metal too low? Or does it depend on the type of train? Yeah, I know, it's stupid...
I also don't want to traumatize a train driver or cause inconvenience for so many people.
So I am looking for something with a similar effect but without these issues.
Any kind of help is appreciated! And yeah, I'm picky. The thing is, I don't want to worry about severe pain being my last experience in life.
