Is there anyone else who never told anyone about their suicidal thoughts irl?

[metamatic]

I never talked about wanting to commit suicide to anyone I know in real life despite having suicidal thoughts for most my life because I don't want to cause people to worry and I don't think it would help. It will be a complete shock to my family when I finally end up doing it.

 

[genericuser]

I'm in the same boat. Everyone around me would be extremely shocked because I don't seem suicidal and I've never talked about it. I also don't see how telling anyone would help because I don't think they can change my mind. I would probably get annoyed if people were to help me because it's my life and I don't see the issue with suicide honestly. Life's not worth living to me.

 

[CelestialGoddess]

I never talked about wanting to commit suicide to anyone I know in real life despite having suicidal thoughts for most my life because I don't want to cause people to worry and I don't think it would help. It will be a complete shock to my family when I finally end up doing it.

Honestly, if you have someone to talk to about it online, I personally think it's good. It mostly depends on your parents' opinions on mental health and suicide. My mom tries to help for the most part, and my dad sometimes can be helpful when he's open to being vulnerable (which is rare). Telling my family I want to kill myself at times does stress them out a LOT, however. I'm just trying to stick around and be alive, though.

 

[unworthy_]

I wish I wont open up as much as I want to people. I thought it is okay but it is not. I lost many friends online and they are distancing from me. I even told my crush that I was suicidal after my last breakup. Now he is distancing from me. He said he is emotionally coping but I dont think so. Its just an excuse to distant from me.

Is okay. I dont really deserve someone to be here for me. They dont owe me anything. Yet i owe the world and family here. I have to do smtg and contribute to the society to keep myself living...

 

[FuneralCry]

I have never talked about it, and I never will. I see no point to doing such a thing as others will not accept and understand my decision and they would expect me to suffer for decades. It seems as though many people do not respect the right to die, I wish we lived in a world where I could get euthanasia. Suicide should not be so stigmatised.

 

[OldDrummer]

Nope. Never.

I've already written my letters, making sure to tell my friends and family that it wasn't their fault and nothing they could have done would have changed the situation.

When I leave the room, I'll walk lightly and close the door quietly.

 

[Forever Dead]

I never talked about wanting to commit suicide to anyone I know in real life despite having suicidal thoughts for most my life because I don't want to cause people to worry and I don't think it would help. It will be a complete shock to my family when I finally end up doing it.The

The only person I ever told was my sister. She just nodded then began talking about her new job. Thats how much she cares in a nutshell.

 

[Lost Magic]

I have told people because I am too open a person. I try to keep it to this forum now because what's the point? I don't want or need a saviour. This place is my final stopping point before I catch that bus.

 

[Micheal64]

I never talked about wanting to commit suicide to anyone I know in real life despite having suicidal thoughts for most my life because I don't want to cause people to worry and I don't think it would help. It will be a complete shock to my family when I finally end up doing it.

No, if I talk to my family about my suicidal thoughts, they will control me more, so I can't die. They prefer to see me suffering than dead. I hate my life.

 

[metamatic]

I'm in the same boat. Everyone around me would be extremely shocked because I don't seem suicidal and I've never talked about it. I also don't see how telling anyone would help because I don't think they can change my mind. I would probably get annoyed if people were to help me because it's my life and I don't see the issue with suicide honestly. Life's not worth living to me.

Same I seem like a normal happy person on the outside and if I were to try to talk about it I don't know where I'd even begin or how to explain it. So I'm not really interested in ever trying to talk about it. And I feel bad for my family because they won't see it coming. I'll just be here one day then I won't.

 

[LoneMisery]

I have and only my best friend and brother will listen to me attentively. But the rest of my so called friends and acquaintances including my cousin who im very close to just either tell me to get help or tell me not to tell them about it anymore. I understand them fully but sometimes you need someone to talk to and a shrink isnt always gonna give u their full attention theyre just gonna go off what they learned in school. So yes ive talked about it irl but ive been given more backlash than not

 

[MayTheStars]

I have never told anyone dispite wanting to do this since my teen years and now well into middle age now.

If I told anyone they would try to talk me out of it and never would understand why I have wanted this for such a long time.

They would also either just distance themselves due to not knowing how to show caring to others or would tell people I am estranged from I believe so I keep this completely to myself.

 

[PleaseTakeMeAway]

I've never told a single soul. Though recently people have noticed my cuts, so they try to pressure me into telling them. Will never work though.

 

[savoytruffle]

never ever, involuntary commitment is a big thing here and we're being treated like the worst criminal

 

[redeyepiranha]

I have told only one friend about suicidal thoughts, but it was more in a joking way, nothing serious. I suggest everyone would be shocked and devastated as they couldn't have predicted me being suicidal.

 

[Fadeawaaaay]

No because it would just cause more problems… Although I think people are very concerned

 

[outrider567]

No, no one knows

 

[stoiccactus]

I've mentioned it to folks but the response usually scares me away from bringing it up again. Threats of sending me to the hospital if I talk about it again, etc. Just not worth it.

 

[Rational man]

No one knows but i have indicated assisted dying to my carer. Also supported by majority of people in U.K. I know of four people who said nothing and then ctb..There was a subtle clue. They started giving possessions away..

 

[stoiccactus]

This reminds me...

There is a line from the Christmas Carole, where Scrooge talks about how his money goes to the poor houses, and the response is "the poor would rather die than go there!" and he responds with, "well, let them die and decrease the surplus population!"

This summarizes how I feel about most mental health institutions and workers there days, especially the involuntary places that those who "care" about you would ship you off to.

 

[MisFortunate]

That I will CTB? NEVER!

 

[Nlis2244]

I don't even have anyone to tell. Only my family, and i'm certainly not telling them.

 

[betternever2havbeen]

I don't have friends anymore, but I wouldn't tell them if I did. I started telling my mum a few years ago-she's not the sort to get you treatment so I don't have to worry about any "intervention" no matter what I say lol. She will defo be shocked if I actually did it though. I used to think "why would you tell anyone you are suicidal it must just be for attention otherwise you would just do it" but now I realise how hard it is to actually go through with it and I did start talking about it with my mum. It's almost like it's part of my identity now or something, I would be careful no to tell anyone else though irl or on any other forum.
I wouldn't have told my mum if she was gonna force me to seek treatment-she probably should to be fair but I'm glad she isn't. She doesn't understand mental health issues (maybe a bit better now than she did but still not hugely understanding) she's never once suffered with depression (unless she's keeping it a secret which I highly doubt) she's calm and rational and unemotional. Sigh why couldn't I have taken after her my life would be so much simpler...

 

[Unlucked]

My mom knows. But at this point she just says 'its your choice'. Shes witnessed my suffering so much to the point she actually sometimes thinks it's better for me to die, and doesn't even regurgitate anything to try to comfort me or sway my mind.

She also the only person I talk since I have no one right now. I guess seeing someone have multiple breakdowns everyday for a year screaming bloody murder from emotional agony and being so limited in their life in any area of advancement : I.e social, economic, etc. She also thinks my life is pointless.

 

[locked*n*loaded]

Never told a soul. Now it's really easy 'cause there's no one left to tell even if I wanted to. Oh wait. I could call the new 9-8-8 suicide hotline and tell them. Yeah. That'll happen. Let me get right on that.