I’m afraid I won’t do it

[itsgone2]

There seem to be a few posts similar but I'm honestly afraid I won't find the courage.
I have methods. I have no desire to continue in this world.
But I remain. I bought a gun thinking I'd at least have an accident. Instead , nothing is happening.

 

[dolliewilting]

im very sorry , do you wanna talk about it at all ?

 

[YourLocalEdgelord]

Same :( I've had my setup for like a year now (psh) and all I managed to do was counting to three before getting up again. I just want to leave this pathetic planet.

 

[darksouls]

same, my existence is only suffering but I am not able to commit

 

[itsgone2]

im very sorry , do you wanna talk about it at all ?

I don't mind if you want to pm me.
For this thread, I don't know just looking for others in the same hole I guess.
I'm frustrated.
I absolutely don't want this life.

 

[darksouls]

I don't mind if you want to pm me.
For this thread, I don't know just looking for others in the same hole I guess.
I'm frustrated.
I absolutely don't want this life.

that is understandable, I never asked for this life

 

[DemonicAngel]

Don't feel bad, I have the "golden ticket" to board the train with and I still won't.

 

[sorrymommy]

Don't feel bad, I have the "golden ticket" to board the train with and I still won't.

N?

 

[orange7201]

I have also had a failed attempt where I chickened out on an OD. It was my best chance, truly.

I ended up taking the tiniest amount of a pill. I don't know why. Because I was very ready to die.

I have since lived another nearly 9 months and it has been a tortuous slog. There is nothing I would have missed out on had I OD'ed back in December, other than more pain and torture.

I think it will happen once you are truly done. At this point, I think I am. The only thing I'm afraid of, ironically, is somehow living.

 

[hdead]

There seem to be a few posts similar but I'm honestly afraid I won't find the courage.
I have methods. I have no desire to continue in this world.
But I remain. I bought a gun thinking I'd at least have an accident. Instead , nothing is happening.

Same, buddy. I conclude for myself that I'm simply not ready to make that choice yet. Life scares the crap outta me, besides just seeming uninteresting at this point. I have a few things that keep me going, albeit barely. I just wanna get to that point where I feel ready to do it and feel at peace with the decision.