I thought about that for a while, I'd pay someone who is in the chemistry field to tell me what I should take to achieve quick, painless and peaceful way to die, they won't have to do anything but give me that information, I'm sure there is some people who would give you that for a price, they aren't doing it themselves, they are just giving you the information and you are free to do with it as you want.
there was this youtuber who struggled a lot with acne and for years no doctor fixed it for her so she went and studied in the field and figured whats the problem is and ended up fixing her own acne, I always thought maybe I should study chemistry and have the knowledge to know what to use to CTB