I will be carrying a 3rd coffin this year in my family then it’s my turn

[depressedsally]

I'm just waiting to bury a member of my family then it's my turn. I would have carried 3 members of my family then this year. Two of them CTB. I was the first one to be suicidal and last one to leave

 

[hoping to lose hope]

That is tough OP.
Did you ever share your thoughts on suicide with them?

 

[depressedsally]

That is tough OP.
Did you ever share your thoughts on suicide with them?

No they knew about my failed attempts but I never really spoke about it. It's a big secret I have held for many many years. I think if I spoke to people about the way I really feel I would be sectioned indefinitely which would not be good and I would never CTB then.

 

[TripleA]

I'm just waiting to bury a member of my family then it's my turn. I would have carried 3 members of my family then this year. Two of them CTB. I was the first one to be suicidal and last one to leave

What was methods of two of them, and what is your method?

 

[hoping to lose hope]

You can usually just lie to the doctors if you get sectioned and get out.
A sanitorium is not all that bad at least in my experience.

 

[depressedsally]

What was methods of two of them, and what is your method?

One of them was a cut jugular I don't wanna expose to much as I don't want to expose my identity if you get what am saying not many people lose to members of there family in a short space of time how I did. If you get where am coming from

You can usually just lie to the doctors if you get sectioned and get out.
A sanitorium is not all that bad at least in my experience.

I don't think I'd get out once in there one night in a police station and my head falls off

 

[GoneGoneGone]

That's absolutely awful, wish you strength through this experience, nobody should go through that

 

[depressedsally]

That's absolutely awful, wish you strength through this experience, nobody should go through that

Thank you

 

[foxdie]

This is absolutely tragic. I'm so sorry for your loses OP. Sending you hugs in this tough time I hope the funereal can give you some catharsis at least.

 

[depressedsally]

This is absolutely tragic. I'm so sorry for your loses OP. Sending you hugs in this tough time I hope the funereal can give you some catharsis at least.

Thank you