I will always be a recluse from society

[BleederOfZion]

I can't imagine having a stable career and I cant imagine being of anything of any value. As a woman I'm unfit for anything that requires special talent, skill, or knowledge. I will always be overlooked and always held to lower standards. And yet my standards for myself continue to grow to impossibly high points. I am sorry if this is upsetting for some but I have kept this bottled up so long and I only wish to let it out a little bit in a confidential space. I wish to kill myself and hopefully be reborn as the gender where I can just be taken seriously.
I'm not gender dysphoric, I just despise the way nature works a lot of the time despite knowing that it is all for the benefit of the world. If only I removed myself completely from other people only then I can be truly happy. Its either that or CTB.

 

[Makko]

If I'm going to be reborn as female again it had better be a spider. Or an anglerfish.