chaoschuckler
Unfit for World
- Feb 4, 2026
- 127
I'm thinking of doing it tonight. Don't take my words too seriously though, because I always say that and back off at the last moment.
Today I went to my father's shop, and I heard him telling a customer that I'm the family's only hope. That completely broke me because I can't do this anymore. I can't help him, and honestly, I just want to die.
If you were depending on me so much, why did you never care about me? Why was my mental health always taken for granted? Why weren't you worried when I was starving? Why did you keep blaming everything on my phone?
If I'm really just a phone addict, then how did I manage to get into that college? Why did you never notice me studying all the time and working so hard? Instead, every time I tried to explain myself, you made me feel like I was lazy, ungrateful, or imagining my own struggles. You kept dismissing my feelings and twisting everything until I started doubting myself. That kind of gaslighting slowly destroyed me.
Why did you say the only reason you brought me back home after I left was because you were afraid of the police?
I'm sorry. I genuinely wanted to help and fix our family. I tried. But you never gave me the environment to grow or improve. Instead, you constantly talked behind my back, ruined my image in front of relatives, and spoke badly about me.
Anyway, the best I can do now is wish for family's prosperity and health. I will go to that famous temple in our city and pray for that. I never asked God for anything. You believe He exists, so maybe He will fulfill my wish.
Today I went to my father's shop, and I heard him telling a customer that I'm the family's only hope. That completely broke me because I can't do this anymore. I can't help him, and honestly, I just want to die.
If you were depending on me so much, why did you never care about me? Why was my mental health always taken for granted? Why weren't you worried when I was starving? Why did you keep blaming everything on my phone?
If I'm really just a phone addict, then how did I manage to get into that college? Why did you never notice me studying all the time and working so hard? Instead, every time I tried to explain myself, you made me feel like I was lazy, ungrateful, or imagining my own struggles. You kept dismissing my feelings and twisting everything until I started doubting myself. That kind of gaslighting slowly destroyed me.
Why did you say the only reason you brought me back home after I left was because you were afraid of the police?
I'm sorry. I genuinely wanted to help and fix our family. I tried. But you never gave me the environment to grow or improve. Instead, you constantly talked behind my back, ruined my image in front of relatives, and spoke badly about me.
Anyway, the best I can do now is wish for family's prosperity and health. I will go to that famous temple in our city and pray for that. I never asked God for anything. You believe He exists, so maybe He will fulfill my wish.
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