I don't want to participate in this shit show anymore

[Lost Magic]

Do you ever get that numb and fed up that you just don't care as much anymore? I am so glad for all this to be over soon. People are difficult, society is badly formed and divided, you feel alienated with your suicidal thoughts. It's just a never ending cycle of bullshit. How are you supposed to care, when they don't give a fuck?

 

[wljourney]

Yes very much so Paul.
It's challenging to hold on. I'm doing it for my senior dog right now but it's rough.

 

[Lost Magic]

Yes very much so Paul.
It's challenging to hold on. I'm doing it for my senior dog right now but it's rough.

Yeah, I hear you wljourney. You hang on for the ones you love. Dogs are amazing. I got so much love, even from strangers dogs that you sometimes struggle to get with people.

 

[wljourney]

Yeah, I hear you wljourney. You hang on for the ones you love. Dogs are amazing. I got so much love, even from strangers dogs that you sometimes struggle to get with people.

Dogs are definitely the better people.

Who has been letting you down recently that you feel so defeated today?

I've been grappling with getting a call last Friday. My therapist either quit or was fired from the clinic and nobody will tell me the truth. I am quite upset that she didn't even have the decency to tell me at our last appointment. And if they were fired, the clinic doesn't GAF about their patients by not allowing them at least some notice and a chance for a wrap-up appointment.
"Patient centred care" my ass!!!

I'm so tired and done with people.

 

[FuneralCry]

I understand. I want nothing to do with life as well, to me existing just feels so pointless, it is just suffering for the sake of it. I think that life is very depressing. The thought of existing until old age is so unbearable.

 

[longenough]

Yes very much so Paul.
It's challenging to hold on. I'm doing it for my senior dog right now but it's rough.

This resonates so much with me, the challenge is unbearable most of the time.
I am glad to hear that you have the chance to be there for your dog, cherish those moments. I lost my dog way too soon this february in a freak accident. We went for our morning walk together but I had to come home alone, it still feels like a nightmare I am just waiting to wake up from. She never had the chance to get to be a senior dog. The pain is unreal and so raw, I really wish this on nobody. I was struggling with my mental health for most of my life, but losing her made everything so, so much worse.

 

[hellispink]

I feel the same way. I don't wanna have to explain myself to others who do not understand. But I wish I was gone. Waiting is the ultimate effort.

 

[Zzzzz]

I believe I feel that way every day. I have no idea why I'm still alive, struggling through it all.

 

[Seeking_Peace]

Do you ever get that numb and fed up that you just don't care as much anymore? I am so glad for all this to be over soon. People are difficult, society is badly formed and divided, you feel alienated with your suicidal thoughts. It's just a never ending cycle of bullshit. How are you supposed to care, when they don't give a fuck?

I'm right there with you Paul. I'm exhausted at this point and don't care about anything.

 

[The Abyss]

Dogs are definitely the better people.

Who has been letting you down recently that you feel so defeated today?

I've been grappling with getting a call last Friday. My therapist either quit or was fired from the clinic and nobody will tell me the truth. I am quite upset that she didn't even have the decency to tell me at our last appointment. And if they were fired, the clinic doesn't GAF about their patients by not allowing them at least some notice and a chance for a wrap-up appointment.
"Patient centred care" my ass!!!

I'm so tired and done with people.

Everything is about money.

 

[Fengshuiside]

I don't want to participate in it, but I do sort of want to observe it. It's all madness. It sucks that I can't only observe it though, people's insanity has an effect on me as well in this shared reality. I'm also feeling so ill and tired that I don't have the energy to witness all this shit unfold in society in this body I'm currently in.

At the same time I think we're living the craziest and sort of coolest times in human history in a way, but it makes me frustrated to realize that I've messed my own life and body up so bad that now I just regret each day that I live more and more. I know I'm just prolonging my life by a couple days, weeks at most right now. All while I ultimately have a strong feeling that I'm making a mistake if I keep on prolonging it much further. Soon..

 

[hankbank3928]

Same here man, this society is a joke. I don't want to be apart of it anymore.