Every second I am awake the only thing I hear in my head is that I have to die. The only thing I can see when I close my eyes are either me hanging or my splattered body. Even when I sleep I dream of dying or someone killing me or hurting me. Randomly I get flashes of hitting the pavement facefirst and then my skull splitting open. It's gruesome stuff. I have this burning sensation in my head all the time. I think I'm going insane. I can't take it anymore. What do I do? I can't bring myself to commit suicide, yet I can't keep living like this. What do I do? Every second I feel like crying and screaming and I am struggling to fake smiles and pretend I am happy when in public. I don't know what to do.
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