Venting How'd it even get like this?

[SleepingGirl]

It's been so long now. I've been suffering for so long. I wish I could have given the littler me the world that she always dreamed it being, but I guess this is the reality that I have received. Hah, I'm in so much pain.

Everything is such dreams.

 

[lostmyacc]

Creeps up on you doesn't it. Then one day you're laying in bed crying. How the hell did my life get so messed up?

 

[fullofregrets]

Feeling the same. Still trying to process what just happened in last 5 years. I get panic attacks when the reality of present hits me.

 

[HappyForever?]

Yes. I used to dream about my future, my love, my happy life. Then everything started going downhill, and now here I am.

 

[SleepingGirl]

Creeps up on you doesn't it. Then one day you're laying in bed crying. How the hell did my life get so messed up?

And then the sun starts to rise, and another day begins before you're even ready to face it.

 

[hopelessdreams]

i don't know how it got like this, but I do know it can't keep going like this. I don't see myself here in a few years. that's the only comfort I have right now. I feel the same man, life gives you weird curveballs to deal with until you get tired and take the hits.

 

[lostmyacc]

And then the sun starts to rise, and another day begins before you're even ready to face it.

Ovid said, 2000 years ago that night's sadder then the daylight. For me they're indistinguishable.
One long prolonged period of suffering non stop.

 

[thendfornow]

For me shit was very straightforward from even the very beginning of my life i got absolutely wrecked leading me to my first suicide attempts at 16 and 17 one of which ended in 3 days of coma. 21 atm but it feels like i should have died an eternity ago. I know im pretty lucky to still be here after all the adversity i faced but at the same time i cant tell that it was worth it at all. Im really tired

 

[FuneralCry]

I feel like I have been suffering for a long time as well now, I have never wanted to live and in my case I live such a empty existence and time passes very slowly. It all feels extremely pointless. Life is both very disappointing and depressing. All that I want is the peace that death brings. I hope that you find what you are looking for.