Help how do you cope with being alive?

[SchizoGymnast]

Maladaptive daydreaming, urban legends, SaSu and gymnastics

 

[wham311]

I don't.

Problems come up, I can't solve them, and then I get distracted. I'm running out of money, running out of time.. and then time is endless

 

[9mmisglutenfree]

I bury myself in work. I work, get paid, give money to my kids, put some money aside for my wife when I'm gone, and that's about it. Work consumes my mind, which other people hate and can't wait for the weekend, but I dread the weekend. I have no answers for you. Just know that I read your post all the way through and I hear what you're saying.

People laugh when I say that, but it's 100% true for me too.

I had this realization this week- some people dread going to work, I dread being anywhere but. It's the only time I can focus on doing something. The people I'm working around are worth spending that time with a talking to. Being alone or in dad mode just puts me into survival mode

 

[mourningyesterday]

i lost all my copes , can't play video games or watch tv. cant go out in the day without it looking like a lsd trip, cant even eat simple food without triggering my symptoms, can only listen to certain music because any upbeat music annoys me now.

 

[diopdawe]

I lost all interest in my hobbies (jogging, video games, football, haning out with friends) as they do not give me pleasure anymore. I function like a machone. I get up in the morning, go to work, get home and I go straight to bed and sleep by 8 pm. TV shows, video games, books, anything that I used to like now irritate me.

 

[LetMeOut67]

By watching videos like this

 

[Raindancer]

The best advice I was ever given is when I am down to try and do something for someone else. I used to be able to do more but now it's mostly small things or very small things, but at least it is something. When I am completely empty and have nothing left which currently is mostly where I am at, it's my dog and movies. Having to care for her at least lets me think of someone other than myself. To make sure sh'e taken care of and the love she gives me. When it's really bad I try and escape into movies. I used to love reading and could read all day. I still do in short spans but it's hard to concentrate unless it's a really good book.

Those first day weeks and months after a break up are so hard. When my ex and I broke up I would walk at night to help with the anxiety. I really didn't want to talk with people so I would walk very late. The breeze on your face and the dark night were very comforting. Not sure if that is an option. I know it sounds contrite but it does get better. Be kind to yourself and do as much self care as you can.

 

[starboy2k]

MD, drugs, junk food, fapping, sleep

 

[IDontKnowEverything]

Dissociate, unfortunately work (I wasn't programmed for that shit and I feel so useless but getting objectively pointless things actually done simply because it was your obligation to do so helps in the end), learning and getting into whatever new things I didn't even know were my style it's fun, formerly lots and lots of reading (reading was my recovery arc but I'm too dead and tired for it now), heavy music (I really do reccomend this one), formerly also video games (especially if they have a good story), if you have any people you actually like or feel comfortable around speak with them or like, watch a movie or something.
Also a bunch of less healthy coping mehanisms such as avoid getting out of bed whenever I can and starve for two days, sh, substance abuse, isolation, just do everything possible to forget I am infact, alive.
Honestly I thought I would have been gone years ago so it feels really weird I am still here. I used to be way more resilient than this though, fuckk.
There are many coping mechanisms you can choose to take up, and then you can try to recover if you wish.
A friend of mine gave me the suggestion of weight lifting - hurts like a bitch yet you feel more accomplished as time goes on.
Due to too much joint pain that simply is not an option for me sadly but I still think that his suggestion was a good one, especially if you plan on stickng around some time longer.
Also another friend of mine with 3 CTB attempts on her told me about how she used instruments as an outlet. She doesn't play for others but for herself, and music is part of what saved her.

 

[2muchpain2]

Take meds, read, write, tv, coffee and internet. My favorite part of the day is going to sleep.

i feel this. the only thing i look forward to is sleeping.

 

[tsumihoroboshi]

I don't cope well at all, I just have meaningless distractions from the inevitable, but I also do the same as you and get high just to ignore the fact I not only am unfortunately still alive, but that I live in such a disgusting body too.

I also agree with previous posts, maladaptive daydreaming.

 

[Moroze]

By leading a hedonistic lifestyle, abusing substances, engaging in maladaptive daydreaming, self-sabotaging, consuming large amounts of junk food and binge playing video games.

 

[NonEssential]

By playing video games and petting my cats mostly.

 

[manicstreetbeeper]

i can answer your question about cutting, actually. i used to burn my arms with my cigarettes (& still do) but switched more to cutting in the past month or so; it releases dopamine in the brain which makes people, i'd imagine even more under distress, feel good. it has to do with both pain and the breaking of skin i believe. it doesn't *always* have this effect for me 100 percent of the time, but i also do it a lot. it's not worth it in the sense that the feeling only really lasts for a few minutes at most and it's too easy to go deeper than intended (without it resulting in death); i've done that as well and am so lucky to not have any noticeable nerve damage.

to survive until my suicide in the coming month, i daydream, journal about my issues/pretend i'm talking to someone else sometimes in that way, try to exercise off at least half of what i consume in a day so i feel control over something, self harm, smoke, shoplift occasionally (poor but also want/need things), honestly purge once in blue moon when i can or really want to, and drink (it's not boast worthy or cool, just was surprising to me and kind of fun, but i walked out with 750ml vodka in my coat the other day lol). so not much healthy at all.

nothing idealistic or anything i try to directly encourage; i lie about stopping self harm to anyone who knows and do it in hidden places on my body.

coming on here is somewhat helpful as well. i am also on a site for eating disorders that helps me cope at least with that because i feel validated and less isolated in that area.


i advise you to stay in places, even if it's here, where you yourself feel less alone in how you feel, and even if or though (can't remember if you stated in your post; sorry) you are going to kill yourself. the thought of suicide ironically is enough to keep me going in the meantime but there's no need for any of us to suffer more in that painful little in-between timeframe.

 

[wham311]

I don't. I wake up in panic, fall back asleep, think traumatic thoughts throughout my dreams, wake up again when I have to pee, eat, and then go to sleep.

It's a fucking horror show

 

[nooneyouknow]

When my gf of 2 years broke up with me a bit over a year ago, i genuinely just tried to make it till tomorrow by any means necessary. I set no other goals for myself, long as I woke up again. And for a while it was just pure bed rotting and scrolling on my phone, i'd manage to have like 12-15hr phone time average. I didn't care, it got me through the day alive and I just had to keep doing it and I'm still doing it but my screen time is down to only 8-9 hours of daily rotting. I kept getting through tomorrow and personally I just got so so so sick of looking at my phone for so long. I *had* to find other ways to cope because I was going insane just laying down most parts of the day watching brain dead content. I'm slowly getting back into reading and I try to draw when I can. But admittedly it's still hard and my memory is poor and I feel like I'm not here most of the time regardless.

So in short I guess I cope with escapism, distractions, god awful memory, letting my days blur together, and then some more escapism. I know myself and if I ever got my hands on any substance, I would OD, it would just be a matter of when and personally the thought of dying not myself scares me enough to deter me. Plus Ive already been suffering w SH for the last like 6 years atp so I don't care to see how I would be with anything else

 

[attheend13]

I don't cope to be honest. I just survive. But I don't want to.

 

[ginko0]

Food, which still tastes good. Music, specially extreme metal. Books that give me something substantial to think about. Cigarettes while contemplating the moon. And dreams. I love dreaming. I always wake up feeling like shit, because here comes life: not as surprising, random or adventurous as dreams. But, honestly, none of these make life seem less pointless to me. Lucidity = suffering, happiness = obliviousness

 

[Pluto]